Read more about the article I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem
Depression / My thoughts

I’ve been off #Paxil for a month and the nausea is still a problem

It's been about a month since I took my final dose of Paxil. To say it's been an easy process would be a boldface lie. Frankly, it's been an absolute nightmare. Slowly lowering my dose over 90 days was rough but it didn't truly suck until the Paxil was completely out of my system. Having taken my last dose about 30 days ago, the medication has been out of my system for about the last 25 or 26 days. It's a very short half life and that's one of the reasons it's so hard to come off of. For the first week or two, I was completely overcome by emotion. It was like Paxil had been functioning like a dam and when it was gone, the emotions it had kept…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article A MAJOR Victory flew under the radar yesterday
Elliott / My thoughts / School / Today's Victory / Victories

A MAJOR Victory flew under the radar yesterday

Yesterday was a rather challenging day for me personally, but I muddled my way through it. In all the frustration, stress and otherwise chaotic events of yesterday, something didn't get mentioned that should have. For years we've struggled with Elliott and homework. It didn't matter what it was or how much he had, it was a nightmare. There were plenty of times I was hanging on by a thread because the whole homework thing was too much. I don't know what happened or when it actually began but Elliott's attitude towards homework has changed. He does his homework right away and without issue. In fact, lately he's been working on his homework on the way home from school, like you see in the picture above. This deserves to be mentioned…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article My kids with #Autism never fell asleep last night
Autism Parenting Struggles / My thoughts

My kids with #Autism never fell asleep last night

It's been the longest night ever, well at least recently anyway. For the second night in a row, Elliott hasn't slept. Monday going into Tuesday, I think he got about two hours and that's it. He did okay at school the following day but last night was really rough. This time however, Emmett was awake to join him. Elliott never went to bed but Emmett woke up from a nightmare and was too afraid to go back to sleep. When 7 AM rolled around this morning, they were both so exhausted that there was no way we could send them to school. They would be setup to fail and that's not the right move. Both boys went to bed and are currently sleeping. Our goal is for them to make…

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April 4, 2018
Read more about the article Life is NOT easy be we have a great deal to be thankful for
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Life is NOT easy be we have a great deal to be thankful for

The boys had a pretty good day. They got off to school without much problem. I was pleasantly surprised because Elliott only had a couple hours of sleep. He's been struggling to sleep the last couple nights and we may have to speak with his pediatrician for advice because Melatonin isn't helping. I went back to bed cause I wasn't feeling well, still due to the whole Paxil thing but I felt better when I woke up and was able to get quite a bit accomplished. One of the things I'm really struggling with is taking in enough water, especially since herthis whole Paxil thing. I'm making a concerted effort to fix that but the nausea is pretty rough at times and I don't want to think about eating or…

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April 3, 2018
Read more about the article I desperately need to vent
My thoughts

I desperately need to vent

This is one of those posts where I will completely open up and share things that are going on in my life that have me feeling the way I'm feel this morning. This is only meant to provide insight and context. These are just some of the many things weighing on me thus morning. I'm just venting and I haven't even proofed the post. Please forgive the wordy mess but it needed to come out. I woke up this morning feeling nauseated again because that's been the status quo for the most part since taking my last dose of Paxil almost a month ago now. The journey to get off of Paxil has been horrible and took over ninety days to complete. I learned the hard way, just how horrible…

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April 3, 2018
Read more about the article Shipping the kids off tonight
My thoughts

Shipping the kids off tonight

The boys has a meds check this morning at their pediatrician. They were a bit of a handful but considering we were there for a total of two hours, I think they actually did quite awesome. ☺ Everything checks out with the boys and meds were refilled. Both Elliott and Emmett's idiopathic fevers were once again documented. There's nothing we can do about them but documentation is very important. As for the rest of the day, I have a few errands to run before the boys leave to spend the night at my parents house. If all goes as planned, we will have the first night off, since our trip to Florida. I think that's right. Either way, it's been forever and we desperately need it. For awhile now, at…

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March 29, 2018
Read more about the article There are times as his father, I have to turn away and cry
Gavin / My thoughts

There are times as his father, I have to turn away and cry

Lizze and I had a fairly decent night to ourselves. The E's were at their Grandparents but Gavin was home. It's not really a night off, even with Gavin being the only one home. Gavin is becoming more and more difficult to manage. That wears heavily on us both physically and emotionally. It's physically exhausting because it's physically exhausting. It's emotionally exhausting because it's painful beyond my ability to articulate, seeing Gavin decline to the extent he has. Heartbreaking is probably a better word choice. Gavin is such a sweet kid but he's 18 years old and we have to seemingly micromanage his every move. We have to make sure he doesn't hurt himself doing something he shouldn't. We have to make sure that all the things that he doesn't…

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March 25, 2018