Things settled down last night and we were able to go to sleep without any further disruptions. I will say that our room is directly below where the raccoon trap is set and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit freaked out by that. As far as I can tell, the raccoon never came back last night. I thought I heard something moving around up there but I didn't see anything and the trap remains untouched. We'll have to see what tonight brings. Having said that, we went about 2 weeks between visits the last time. I'm not sure how frequently this thing stops by but it's certainly not every night. Unfortunately, we have no way to predict when it will be there so we're in a…

I'm having a really hard time falling asleep after what I shared in the previous post. I'm laying in bed, just getting more and more pissed off because I can't change our course right now. We can't move and I'm feeling like a complete failure as a result. As I'm laying there getting more and more frustrated because I can't sleep, I heard loud noises coming for our attic. I've been talking about trying to get rid of squirrels in our attic for the last couple of weeks. We've even placed a live trap up there but haven't heard anything since the trap was placed. Of course, tonight would be the night that the noises returned. The noise was right above our room and it was really loud. I brought…

I'm trying to remain positive tonight but it's not working out. I've mentioned over the years how badly we need to move. Our neighborhood is not safe and as time goes on, things get worse. It seems like there are periods of calm, followed by an increase in either violence or crime. The violence has been bad. We've been involved in a drive by shooting, where I was nearly rundown by the gunmen fleeing the scene and they threw their loaded guns out the windows of their car at my family as we were walking into the house. Shortly after that, a young male had his entire belly split open during an attempted robbery and he collapsed in front of my house. I held his organs in place with my…

Another day, another challenge. I'm having sort of a rough start to the day. Nothing bad has happened but I woke up feeling overwhelmed by anything in my life. It's a terrible way to start the day because I know things are going to begin piling up and I'm already buried. Anything that gets thrown on the pile is only going to make things worse. There are days where the weight of everything feels so much heavier than it does on others. On any given day, I have to make decisions about how to spend my limited pool of resources. Sometimes everything just seems to click into place but other times it's like trying to cram a square peg into a round hole. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm worn out.…