I never thought this would be the case but I'm really struggling with my upcoming 40th birthday. I know it's just a birthday but it's a major milestone and I had envisioned my life much differently than it's turned out. Don't take that wrong. I'm not unhappy with my life but the stress and anxiety filled direction it's taken is overwhelming on a good day. There's so much to worry about on a daily basis and there are some things I'm going to be worrying about for the rest of my life. I don't see a point where I'm ever going to be able to put these struggles behind me. As I'm only a few weeks away from turning 40, I just can't help but evaluate my life, my current…

The day has begun kinda early. We're getting ready to leave and begin our travels in short order. Lizze had a rough night apparently. Both her shoulders slipped out of socket and that's not fun. Speaking of shoulder slippage, Gavin's left shoulder popped out of socket last night. He was picking something up and BAM, instant pain. 😔 Anyway, he's feeling better this morning but Lizze is still in pain. We have a fairly decent drive ahead of us and assuming there's no major traffic delays, we should be on the road for about an hour, maybe an hour and twenty minutes. Anyway, everyone's in a fairly good mood and that's never a bad thing. I'm super excited about resolving our bandwidth issues with a new modem and the speed…

We have a busy week ahead of us. At least the first half of the week is going to be busy. In the morning, we have to swing by the Spectrum office in order to get our modem replaced. We're having bandwidth issues recently and it's effecting the way our house functions. We need a new modem in order to get a needed speed boost. After that, we have to go to Cleveland because Lizze and the boys have appointments with immunology. They'll be there for things other than immunology related issues. This doctor also deals with seasonal allergies, Emmett's fever disorder, Elliott's food allergies and asthma. I don't believe Gavin has an appointment because he recently had his. This will take most of the day and I'll end up…

I slept pretty well last night and that's a good thing because I've got my morning cut out for me. Vivint will be here is a little while and there may be a problem with adding the camera. I'm not sure if it's going to end up happening. We may have to sacrifice some indoor cameras in order to add another outdoor camera. It's apparently a technical limitation. This is a worrisome development but we can figure it out when they arrive. I'm not sure what we have going on today after this. Everyone is sorta in a mood already and I don't want to push anyone's limits because that's going to make things worse.

We've had a fairly typical morning. Lizze had a doctor's appointment and we're trying to get ready for Vivint to arrive tomorrow. The boys are doing pretty well and Gavin is being Gavin. We have two main goals aside from survival today. Survival is always our bottomline but we work hard to build up from there. ☺ I'm working on the outside of the house because I need to figure out where the best, most inconspicuous place is for a new camera is. If we'd had this done when it was originally scheduled, we'd have caught this asshole who shot off 6 rounds on the side of our house the other day. We had to reschedule our last install because something had come up. Truthfully, the outside of our house…