I know I'm so far behind and I'm not keeping up with this blog. It's never my intention to back away because it's an important part of helping me manage the stress in my life. Since the beginning, writing about our life, specifically from my perspective, has been therapeutic for me. I was able to write what I was feeling and then walk away, without having to carry the weight anymore. It's been largely successful and I'm so grateful that it also helps provide comfort to other families going through similar situations. There's a great deal going on in my life right now and writing is becoming more difficult for me on a number of levels. I'm trying to force myself to get back into the habit of writing a…

I feel like we had a good day today. It goes without saying that it was far from perfect but perfect is never the target. We had some issues, especially at bedtime with Elliott but I'm still breathing and so is he. 😉 We're getting into that teenage angst and I'm gonna be honest, it's not fun. Autism complicates things in the sense that it sorta muddies the water. It's hard to know what's typical teenage behavior and what's Autism related. I don't know, maybe that doesn't make sense. Either way, we all survived the day and I'm always grateful for that. It could always be worse and I try to remind myself of that every single day. Everyone is sleeping and I'm gonna finish this up and hit the…

There are quite a lot of things going on in my life right now. Work has been picking up and I'm feeling good about that. My search for a therapist continues. I'm hoping for a callback tomorrow but insurance is very limiting. I did reach out to one in particular, who's actually very close to my house and on the surface, insurance might not be a problem. I'm hoping to hear back soon. Unfortunately, not everyone keeps up with their websites and there have been more than a few who say they take our insurance but it turns out they no longer do. It's actually a bit frustrating. I do feel very positive about this, despite having a harder time finding someone. It may take a little bit but I…

I've not been around much the last few days, and I wanted to drop a quick line and let you know everything is okay. What's happening right now is that I'm re-evaluating my priorities, and focusing on personal growth. I've been distracted, overwhelmed, and easily frustrated. That can make me a less than stellar husband and father. You may be interested to learn that I'm going to seek out a dedicated therapist for myself. I haven't had one in a while. Lizze has been asking me to do this for a while, and I haven't because I thought I was doing okay. The truth is, I'm not doing nearly as well as I thought I was, and it impacts Lizze and the boys in a negative way. I've been carrying…