I'm gonna be super honest and tell you that I'm freaked out about tomorrow. In the morning, I see my doctor. I'm a month or so late for my six month checkup. I received a call last week and my doctor is concerned about my labs. All I can think of is that it's been a very stressful year and it's taken a toll on my body. I don't know that anything is catastrophic but I'm definitely moving in the wrong direction. They nurse said they weren't terrible but they bad enough that they wanted to see me sooner than later. Over the last few years, I've been working very hard to get my numbers back in line and I had done so. Now it sounds like I've lost progress…

After the chaotic morning, we recovered nicely and pretty much kicked ass. The chaos was caused by things I forgot to do last night before I went to bed and it had nothing to do with the kids. I'm glad to share that both boys went to school today, without any problems. Emmett's still in pain and Elliott is still struggling but both took on today with a positive attitude and will hopefully have a great day. Truthfully, I'd be happy with a decent or survivable day at this point. Both of the boys hopped out of the car with a smile on their face and that's so good to see. I'm not saying that today is going to be easy but I think they're going to kick Mondays ass..…

I totally dropped the ball last night and didn't realize it until this morning. As a result, it's been pretty chaotic. I went to bed fairly early last night because I was exhausted. As I was laying in bed, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was forgetting something, but couldn't figure out what that something was. As I was getting everyone moving this morning, I remembered what I was supposed to do. I forgot to make fresh pepperoni rolls for the boys school lunch and I also forgot to do Elliott's laundry. I can't believe I forgot to get these things done before I went to bed. I suppose that's what exhaustion can lead to. Thankfully, I had time to bake the pepperoni rolls and now I'm just waiting…

There are a few things to talk about before I call it a night. Some are positive and others, not so much. I will begin with the more unpleasant stuff because I'd like to end on a positive note. Part of the reason I haven't written much this weekend is because I'm really focusing on the kids and they're struggling quite a bit. I always focus on the kids but Elliott, in particular, has been very, very upset for the last day or so. I'm trying to give him some space while still helping him to work through some of this. Unfortunately, the best I can do is listen, help him to feel validated because, in many ways, he's not wrong. I also help him work on ways of dealing…

I didn't do anything incredibly productive last night and I'm okay with that. I hardly get any time to myself and when I do, a large part of me wants to do absolutely nothing. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed but these little breaks are pretty awesome. They're a necessity, even if I don't do anything. Last night, I did manage to record a podcast. I felt inspired to talk about something that is consuming my life at the moment and that topic is divorce. It's a shorter episode, less than 20 minutes but I wanted to talk about navigating divorce when Autistic kids are involved. It's a delicate issue to speak about, but an important one. The plan is to release it next Friday but I'm not entirely sure. I'm coordinating…

I barely got the kids to school today because Elliott and Emmett are struggling so much. This is so much worse this time around. I'm so frustrated because every single day is a nightmare now and the struggle is unbelievable. When I had the boys to Akron Children's Behavioral Health this week, we talked about how to help them manage. He explained that the boys had been traumatized in 2014 when their mom left and retraumatized when she left again in August. Unfortunately, there isn't any medication that is going to fix this. The only thing that will eventually help is time and lots of therapy. The problem at this point is that this trauma is so new and they still refuse to talk about it. This is impacting every…