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It’s funny how things work out

Tomorrow marks one week since Maggie passed away. I'm not sure if the significance of the day will strike the kids or not but I'm certainly not going to raise their attention to it. We've been preparing for awhile now that Maggie wouldn't be around forever but we had no idea how soon she would be taken. When I stumbled across Ruby a few months ago, I had no idea how important that moment would be. We would have survived Maggie's passing and eventually moved on, because that's the way life is. I will say that having Ruby a part of our lives has made the adjustment a little easier, especially for the boys. She may only be the size of my shoe but she packs a whole lot of…

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April 19, 2018

My thoughts

If I had known 6 years ago

I've not been feeling well today and I'm getting really tired of it. Everyday it's wash, rinse and repeat. If I had known six years ago that Paxil would be so devastating to come off of, I would have never gone on it.

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April 19, 2018

My thoughts

Why my day was so stressful

It's been a stressful day for about a million reasons. About half of those reasons were Autism related and the rest were the result of a few other things. I'm still not feeling a hundred percent but I'm probably upwards of sixty or seventy percent lately and that's progress. I'm really grateful for that. We're also coming up on the one week anniversary of Maggie's passing and that's still a pretty fresh wound. It was a rough day. Everything was going okay until the mail came. Inside was a letter stating that we had lost our insurance coverage. More specifically, Lizze and I had lost our insurance coverage. The boys were not impacted and that was blessing. We're on Buckeye insurance, which is a managed care provider for Medicaid in…

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April 19, 2018

My thoughts

It’s the little things

I've been working to keep everyone in the house as active as possible but the fricking weather isn't wanting to make that job any easier. I think it was five days ago, it was 80°F and now it's snowing again. Lizze doesn't do well in the cold weather but I'm getting the kids out for a little bit at a time, almost every day. Yesterday, we left a bit early for Dr. Patties so the boys could walk around the Garden Center and catch Pokémon. It's way colder than it had been a few days prior, and it was snowing quite heavily. The boys lasted about fifteen minutes before we headed back to the car. While it's not perfect, it was fifteen minutes of activity that they wouldn't have otherwise…

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April 18, 2018

Gavin / My thoughts

At least the pain doesn’t last long

Gavin's having a pretty decent day thus far. After taking the kids to school, I took him to get his weekly bloodwork done. Once again, he did great in that regard and now we wait for the results. Unfortunately, while he was walking out of the lab, both his hips popped and he was in a lot of pain. Gavin's joints are known to quite frequently pop out of place. That's not much we can do about that because it's a genetic thing. He did physical therapy for a long time and perhaps we need to revisit that again. He's doing fine now and the pain only lasts a short while. It sucks that it's present at all but at least it doesn't last long.

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April 18, 2018

My thoughts

Crawling back into bed isn’t an option

I woke up feeling awful this morning. As time goes on, I seem to be doing a tiny bit better in regards to dealing with the withdrawal symptoms of being of Paxil. This morning however, I work up feeling like I was going to puke again. It's getting so old already. Crawling back into bed isn't an option today because the kids need to get to school and Gavin needs his weekly bloodwork done. I've been finding that if I push through the nausea, it starts to get better the more I move around. That sorta seems counter intuitive and I can't explain it outside of an endorphin thing. Either way, it's still a daily struggle and some days are worse than others. We all have our burdens to bare…

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April 18, 2018

My thoughts

Why ongoing therapy is important for my #Autism family

Lizze is having a rough day and is trying to get some rest. The boys and I are off meet with Dr. Pattie for Tuesday night therapy. I guess we're stopping at the Garden Center to walk around for a bit. Emmett and Elliott want to catch some Pokémon and I just want to get out of the house.. ☺ With all the complexity, stress and challenges that we face as an Autism family, regular therapy is something I feel is extremely important. Our phychologist has known us since before the boys were born and has been working with Gavin for close to fifteen years. These sessions help me as a parent, have someone to bounce ideas off of and seek guidance from, especially when my wife and I are…

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April 17, 2018

Autism Parenting Insight / Gavin / My thoughts

I mention Gavin was struggling today and here’s what I’m seeing

This post was meant for yesterday but didn't get published until now. The morning didn't go as originally planned and perhaps that threw Gavin off a bit. He was definitely off this morning and it presented some frustrating situations for me. For starters, he was freaking out over his IVIG infusion. Gavin was worried about the needles leaking before he even began the procedure. This isn't uncommon for him to worry about, and I can't blame him for worrying, but the degree to which he was worried, interfered with getting his infusion going this morning. Gavin was doing some serious pacing and when he'd stop, he would lean side to side, sorta rocking back and forth. He was seriously stressed. It's sometimes hard to out my finger on what exactly…

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April 17, 2018