Read more about the article I wish I knew what was stressing me out so much
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I wish I knew what was stressing me out so much

I'm totally struggling today. My head has been pounding all day and I'm sporting a relatively short fuse. I was hoping today would be a better day for me but it hasn't. I wish I could put my finger on what was causing me so much distress but I can't. The reality is that I'm overwhelmed and by overwhelmed I mean it feels like life is crushing me to the point I can't breathe. I know many of you out there reading this can relate. It would be awesome if I could say, oh this is what's stressing me out and then do something about it. Unfortunately, I don't think it's any one thing. I think it's a number of things and my resources are depleted to such an extent…

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October 12, 2020
Read more about the article For fuck’s sake, enough with the judgement already
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For fuck’s sake, enough with the judgement already

We had a pretty good day. Emmett had a rough start and missed his first class of the day but recovered and did fantastic. Elliott did awesome as well. Unfortunately, he's experiencing some technical difficulties with the connection to the school but their tech support is looking into it. Tomorrow is an offline day for Emmett, meaning he doesn't have any live online classes but he uses the time to work on his school work and cna meet with his teachers should he need extra help. Okay, I'm going to stop here because I feel there are some things that need to be addressed. I have my share of trolls and I've been trying to let most of the comments stand lately but sometimes, they're so mean spirited that I…

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September 28, 2020
Read more about the article A slight hiccup to the start of our day
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A slight hiccup to the start of our day

First of all, I love waking up in the morning with my balcony door wide open. The morning sun shines right in and it's just a good start to the day. I've not been sleeping well lately and getting up in time to get the kids to school isn't easy. On this particular morning, Mr. Emmett is under the weather. He's dealing with nausea and I think it's due in part to post nasal drip, with a heaping helping of stress on the side. Anyway, he's struggling a bit and I called him off from his first class this morning. I'm hoping that a slower start will help him work through this and get back to school in time for his second class. I got him setup on my bed…

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September 28, 2020
Read more about the article I think he’s out of shits to give
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I think he’s out of shits to give

I've been noticing a behavioral change in Gavin and I feel comfortable saying that it began during COVID lockdown. I've stated that Gavin’s been doing really well and that's absolutely the case. What I'm writing about today is more annoying, disruptive, and a bit curious than anything else. Here's what's happening. Gavin startles very easily and I mean very easily. That's not a problem in and of itself. The issue is that when he's startled, he now screams at the top of his lungs, and sometimes falls out of his seat or throws whatever is in his hands into the air. This happens across the board. He doesn't watch things that are even remotely scary. Tonight, Emmett was playing the Xbox and he was looking around a room. When he…

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September 21, 2020
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I’m losing interest in all the things I once enjoyed

It's been a pretty rough couple of days. Scratch that. It's been a pretty rough year. I'm feeling a great deal of pressure right now and it doesn't look to be getting better, anytime soon. I'm fact, it's likely to only get worse. School is getting closer and closer and I'm getting more and more nervous about this whole distance learning thing. I don't really worry so much about the kids because I believe they can totally handle this. I'm nervous that I won't be able to handle this. I've been working a lot the last few days but unfortunately, it's not translating into much financially, at the moment. That fact alone has me unable to sleep at night. I know that literally millions and millions of people are dealing…

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August 9, 2020
Read more about the article 150 days of #COVID19 lockdown and the #depression is real
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150 days of #COVID19 lockdown and the #depression is real

The boys and I have been on lockdown for 150 days today. It's crazy to think it's been this long and it's even crazier to think we could be looking at almost another year before we get access to a vaccine. While we're all safe and healthy, that doesn't mean we're doing great. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for everyone's health, including my own but the isolation is taking a toll. Everyone is impacted differently. Elliott and Emmett are very short tempered anymore and struggle emotionally. Gavin is struggling emotionally, which leads to decompensation in other areas of his life. As for myself, there's no two ways about it, I'm depressed. Depression is definitely kicking my ass right now but I'm still fighting. Some days I fight harder than…

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August 3, 2020
Read more about the article Sleeping Tips for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)
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Sleeping Tips for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

Raising a child with autism spectrum disorder (ASD) poses many unique challenges for you as a parent. Sleeping Tips for Children With Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) One of the most commonly affected areas involves sleep. Good sleep during pregnancy is certainly important, but so too is adequate rest postpartum and into childhood for both you and your child. As your child ages, lost sleep usually results from their inability to sleep. If they can’t fall asleep, have bad dreams, or wake up frequently, then they may wake you up directly or indirectly through the noise they make. Making matters worse, they’ll suffer from the effects of poor sleep. Losing even a few hours of sleep is enough to cause negative effects on their mood, energy, and cognitive skills, especially for…

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July 25, 2020