Read more about the article I don’t want to feel like this anymore
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I don’t want to feel like this anymore

I have a doctor's appointment this morning to discuss managing my ADHD with medication.  This has been a long time coming and I'm excited/nervous.  We're also going to talk about my antidepressants as well. This is so important, especially as I'm continuing to struggle. I'm looking forward to putting some of this struggle behind me or at least becoming better equipt to manage it.  I don't expect it to be an easy, overnight change but rather a process.  It's going to take time but I will take back control over my life and continue moving forward. On my way to the doctor I don't want to feel like this anymore. It's awful and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Giving up isn't an option for me, so I need to…

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August 8, 2022
Read more about the article I went to bed feeling like I was a decent Dad last night
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I went to bed feeling like I was a decent Dad last night

I'm really trying to push through all this shit today. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing okay and other times I feel like I'm broken. I've been really focused on work lately because I'm getting slammed, which is good but it's also painfully obvious that I'm a one man operation. My goal right now is continued growth and meeting the needs of the community. I've been going back and forth over the best ways to do that. After a good bit of thought, I've made the decision to add a second episode each week, and I know what you're thinking. Rob, why would you add more work for yourself when you're already spread too thin? Great question. The second episode is less than 10 minutes long and I'm answering listener…

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July 15, 2022
Read more about the article The truth is I’m really struggling right now
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The truth is I’m really struggling right now

It's been a minute since I've written anything. While this is the part where I usually apologize for that, I'm not going to do that anymore. The reason is because it ends up feeding this insane level of guilt that I feel for not writing and I need to stop that. The truth is that I'm struggling a bit right now. Honestly, I'm struggling more than a bit right now. I don't know why I try to downplay it. I want to try and explain what I'm experiencing, as it might help someone else out there feel a little less alone. I feel like I'm spread way too thin. The reality is that in some ways, I probably am, while in others, maybe not so much. I know that sounds…

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July 12, 2022
Read more about the article Feeling pretty good about my parenting today
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Feeling pretty good about my parenting today

Emmett and Gavin are at their Mom's for the weekend. We've been dealing with a few obstacles in regards to visits and I wasn't sure they would want to go or not. I'm really glad that we've navigated some of these things and they were comfortable moving forward. Sometimes navigating these things can be very challenging but it's all part of life. Well, it's all part of divorced life anyway. Elliott on the other hand is not in the same place as his brothers so he stayed home, and that's okay. I had quite a bit of work that needed to get done and some invoicing as well. I'd say I managed to complete about 70% of what I needed to get done. I feel pretty good about that. Feeling…

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June 10, 2022
Read more about the article Here’s an update, it’s been a minute
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Here’s an update, it’s been a minute

It's been a minute since I've been here. Life is taking me in multiple directions and to be completely honest, I've been struggling. So much has happened over the last few weeks. There's been joy, heartache, victories, COVID, setbacks, and even major milestones. Objectively speaking, life in my house of autism is going well. We had our first battle with COVID since the pandemic began. Elliott, Emmett, and I all experienced mild, allergy-like symptoms for a week or so. Elliott is the only one to actually tested positive for COVID, and Gavin was the only one who didn't appear to be affected. Thankfully, we're all out of quarantine. Elliott missed the last two weeks of the school year because he kept testing positive but everything worked out, and most importantly,…

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May 31, 2022
Read more about the article Today’s going to be a good day
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Today’s going to be a good day

The last couple of days have been rough for me. I experience with emotions is very intense. That's not necessarily a bad thing but it can be overwhelming. I've always been that way but as I've aged, it's become easier to manage. Not perfect mind you, but manageable. When I get like this, I can start drowning in what feels like a tsunami of feelings, fear, and pervasive thinking. I always thought that was normal but as I'm learning more about myself, I'm understanding it's very much an ADHD thing. It's so interesting to step back and look at things because I'm able to recognize patterns in my behavior that make much more sense now. Once I recognize the problem, I can work on addressing it. The hardest part for…

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May 11, 2022
Read more about the article I’m 43 years old, and finished my first round of #ADHD testing
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I’m 43 years old, and finished my first round of #ADHD testing

The other day, I received a phone call from my psychologist. There had been a cancelation and he was hoping I would come in a week early to get started on my ADHD evaluation. I had to clear my afternoon schedule but I jumped at the opportunity to get this process started. I've been waiting for a couple of months to undergo this evaluation and hopefully, get the help I need to better manage my symptoms. I arrived at the office about an hour or so after hanging up the phone and nervously waited in the lobby. Eventually I heard my name and made my way into this small room off to the side. It was cluttered with books, papers, and boxes. It reminded me of my speech therapists office…

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May 6, 2022