Today's been a bit of a struggle for a number of reasons. The most obvious is the COVID19 stuff but today is also the one year anniversary of my grandmother's passing. I've been a bit distracted today so it didn't really hit me until bedtime. The kids found me crying in my room tonight and I had to remind them of what day it was, which created distress for them. It sucks losing family and she was the end of an entire generation. I really miss her. Gavin had a few blow outs today and I'm not sure what is going on with him. He doesn't remember about my grandma, or at least that today was a significant day. He's been decompensating due to everything happening around him, mainly the…

I fell asleep last night before I could finish writing and while that's a bit inconvenient, I'm grateful that I fell asleep. Sleep has been very problematic as of late. Anyway, the boys and I had a pretty good day. I think I mentioned that my lawn mower died after about 15 years of use and 8 had to order a new one. It was delivered yesterday afternoon and I was able to get the yard cut. It's fantastic and I can't wait for the grass to grow back so I can use it again. We spent some time cleaning out the garage and making a new home for the mower. I put our old one out by the curb and it was snatched up very quickly. I suppose it's…

The boys and I had a pretty good day. I didn't sleep well last night, again but I made it through the day. One of the things on our to do list today was getting everyone out for some exercise. Gavin was very resistant because he's afraid of getting sick. The path we took almost never has anyone but bikers. Even if they're not wearing a mask, they blow by so quickly, there's no contact. We ended up having to walk by one person and we wore our masks because it's the right thing to do. The rest of the time we were able to breathe fresh air. We had a great time and even took Ruby along with us. Gavin did awesome and felt much better about going. It's…