It’s easy to underestimate the impact a meltdown can have on a parent

This morning took so much out of me that for the first time in awhile, I crashed after dropping the boys off at school. I did get some writing done prior but I was just no longer able to function and needed sleep. I feel much better now, although I'm still tired. It's pretty easy to underestimate how much a morning full of meltdowns can impact a parent. The amount of emotional and physical energy expended is immeasurable. On the positive side of things, once Emmett works through the sensory issues in the morning, he seems to recover much faster than I do and has a good day at school. Truthfully, if given the choice, this is how I would want it to go. Experiencing a sensory issue like Emmett…

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It’s not his fault and yet he blames himself

Yesterday was a rougher day for Gavin. I should clarify. He was well behaved as usual, but he was physically struggling a bit. Aside from the incessant talking, which only bothers those he's talking to, it was almost like his body was failing him. Let me explain.  There were several times where Gavin legs just sorta gave out on him and he either fell or almost fell.  Unfortunately, this seemed to only occur while he was walking up the stairs, which made this even more dangerous.  Gavin was very frustrated with himself but there wasn't anything he could do about it. It wasn't something he had any control over but he still felt like he was doing something wrong.  It really sucks because life is hard enough for him without blaming…

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This morning was absolute Hell

As I predicted last night, it was a hellous morning. The boys took turns being uncooperative. Elliott started off by not wanting to get out of bed but Emmett sealed the deal with a morning full of meltdowns. OMG.... Emmett was in rare form today. While he's culpable for his actions, he's certainly not responsible for the way his body take in stimulus. We had a really rough time getting Emmett dressed, especially when it came to shoes and socks. It's not his fault but my God, the meltdowns are horrible. We were thirty minutes late for school today as a result. It's so exhausting and there is no simple solution to this problem. For job, we made it through another morning..

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Please tell me it’s bedtime 

OMG.... I've had my hands full today with the boys. Gavin's been driving me nuts with his constant talking but he's also been a huge help today and I'm super grateful for that. Elliott and Emmett on the otherhand have been fighting all day long.. I've lost count of how many meltdowns Emmett's had today and I'm not looking forward to getting him ready for school in the morning. A day like today is not a good sign of what's to come. I'm really looking forward to bedtime because I need some quiet tonight. I'd love to be able to hear myself think.

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Can you relate to this? 

Good morning all. I'm writing this thoroughly exhausted. Elliott was unable to fall asleep last night. He tried for almost five hours and just couldn't sleep. By the time he talked to us he was really frustrated. We ended up camping out in the living room. It still took him another hour to fall asleep but at least he fell asleep. It should go without saying that I'm fucking tired and want nothing more than to fall asleep. To make matters worse, the boys have been watching the annoying orange on YouTube and I think I can actually feel my brain cells dying because that show is so stupid. On the positive side, at least it's entertaining them and that means no one is fighting. Are there any shows that…

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It’s been a tense morning

It's been a tense morning for some reason. Everyone appears to be on edge and I don't know why. I'm hoping for a quiet first half of the day. We have no plans for today and I'm totally good with that. The boys and I are watching the newly released season 4 of Ninjago on Netflix. My kids are very much into this kinda stuff.

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I’m grateful tonight

Lizze is getting some shut eye and the boys and I are hanging out. We made pancakes for dinner and I focused more on serving sizes this time around and we had far less waste.. ☺ Gavin's getting his infusion and I'm writing this, while the boys are working together in the Xbox. It's almost bedtime and I'm feeling really good about this evening because it was pleasant. I was able to get some things done, make dinner and hangout with the boys.. I'm also glad that I was able to do this without needing to wake the wife. She's not been feeling well and needs some extra sleep. I'll probably put the kids down for the night and check on Lizze before settling in for some of whatever I…

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