I mentioned in recent post that I was overwhelmed. If you've been reading for any length of time, that shouldn't be breaking news. I'm overwhelmed and frustrated for a million different reasons. I thought I would expand upon that some and help you better understand where I'm coming from. I know there will be people out there who totally get and some that don't. That's okay. For the life of me, I can't get the house caught up. By the time I'm in a position to get anything done I'm too exhausted to do anything. I'm crashing by 10 PM on most nights. There are so many things that need to get done but I'm either lacking the time, energy or resources to get them done. I want to do…

Moving forward is very hard for me. I'm dealing with the loss of someone who's been a huge part of my life for literally half of my life. It's a process made more complicated because of how hard the kids are struggling with all of this. I'm with them all the time and seeing them in pain makes this so much harder for me. It's hard to grieve when I'm talking care of everyone else. Today I decided that I needed to take a big step forward. This may not seem like a huge deal but it wasn't easy for me. I did some rearranging today in order to make my bedroom mine once again. As a single Dad, I don't need two large dressers in my room, so I…

There's so much to update you all on but I'm falling behind on a lot of that. I mentioned earlier that we weren't having a good day and I wanted to elaborate on that as I had promised I would. The boys are really struggling with school right now and as much as I hate to say this, some of the teachers aren't helping. In fact, they're making things worse. Before I dip into this, I want to be clear that while I'm pissed off and frustrated, I don't believe there's any malicious intent behind the things I'm going to share. That doesn't mean it's okay, because it isn't but I know they mean well. The boys didn't have school last Friday due to a teacher in service day. We…

The boys got off to school but we were late. Emmett had nightmares all night again and I wasn't able to sleep well because he kept startling awake. Unfortunately, I overslept as a result and that didn't get us off to a good start. Elliott must have partially dislocated his hip while he was sleeping because he was in a lot of pain this morning. We were in such a hurry to get out the door, I forgot to give Elliott a motrin for his hip pain. Total failure on my part but I can't change it. The only reason I even know I forgot was because I heard from the school. Elliott was having problems with his hip and they wanted permission to give him motrin for it. Hopefully…