I feel like I had a decent night's sleep. Emmett made made it most of the night in his own bed. He had a nightmare and came running into my room about 5am. The poor kid was physically shaking. I didn't sleep much after that but I still feel pretty good. These nightmares are rough on him and I wish I could help. The boys are supposed to be going to their moms for the night but that's up in the air because she's been sick. I won't know until later this morning. We do hope she's feeling better. Elliott is very much under the weather but he's doing better today. I had to run out last night and try a different OTC cold medication for him but it seems…

The boys slept last night and that's pretty incredible. As a result, I managed to get a 8.5 hours of sleep and I'm feeling pretty okay this morning. I was up and moving before 7am and so was everyone else. The kids are supposed to have a visit this afternoon but their mom is sick, so that looks to not be happening. We hope she feels better soon. I need to finish mixing this week's podcast episode and get the kids to therapy at 5pm. That's about it. I'll of course go walking and maintain my daily routine as much as possible because it keeps me sane. The bar is set pretty low today because I want to have reasonable expectations of myself today. I've been struggling a bit more…

It's been an incredibly frustrating day for me. The kids were sick which means I couldn't go walking or run the numerous errands that I need to get done. It meant that a large part of what I had planned on getting done, simply didn't happen. As of bedtime, the kids are feeling a better. Unfortunately, Emmett is back to not being able to sleep in his own bed. He was doing really well for the last couple of weeks. He would still wake up on occasion and race into my room but he was falling asleep in his bed. He's usually pretty upset when he wakes up because he had a nightmare. He curls up next to me, shaking and it takes time to calm him down enough that…

It's been a l-o-n-g night. The boys didn't sleep much and therefore, neither did I. Elliott has started with an upper respiratory thing with is complicated by his asthma. Interesting fact. Elliott was born premature, suffer bilateral pneumothorax and was diagnosed with premature lung disease. He spent around 10 days in the NICU and we were told that the lung disease would have no impact on him as he got older. Turns out, at least in Elliott's case, that's not true. His allergist/immunologist said that it's probably why his more prone to upper airway infections. Elliott will go through periods of time where he just can't seem to shake there's upper airway infections. They last forever and seem to keep coming back. This is especially true when he's under a…

I've gotten out the habit of writing again. I'm struggling a bit but I'm surviving and determined to get righted. Yesterday the boys had a pleasant visit with their mom and grandparents. They were only gone for a few hours but the quality of those hours is what matters. I used the time to go walking and OMG did that feel good. Elliott is still struggling with many things related to the divorce and it's really hard to see him going through this. I'm powerless to help with some of this stuff because it's outside of what I have control over. It's impacting many aspects of his life and even his teachers are very concerned. That weighs heavy on me and it's hard to focus on much else when your…