This is a really big day for my youngest

This is a big week for us. Emmett is slated to return to school for 3 hours a day. He's nervous but he's also excited at the same time. We've been talking about it this weekend and he seems resolved to make this happen. I'm praying it goes well with because he has needs to get back to school full time ASAP. Unfortunately, I need to be in 2 places at once on Monday monring. I have to have Gavin in Cleveland to see his immunologist first thing in the morning and I won't be here to pick Emmett from school at 11 AM. My parents are unavailable this week and so I had to make arrangements for Emmett's mom and grandmother to pick him up. I'm really grateful for…

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OMG… I Can’t Be Getting Sick

The boys spent the night at their mom and grandparents house last night. They don't get very much time with her and I have no control over that. They just got home early for some reason but it seems to have been a good visit and I'm always grateful for that. I want more than anything for the kids to find a way to rebuild their relationship with their mom and move forward. That's very important to to me. It's proving to be a challenge but it's well worth the effort. I'm not in a good mood because I woke up not feeling well and the kids are bouncing off the walls. I'm not sure if it's just a cold or what but I feel it coming on. We have…

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One of the challenges I face as an #Autism Dad

I'm so fucking tired and I'm going to make this quick. Emmett's eye appointment went well. He needs new glasses, which have already been ordered. The spots in his vision don't seem to have a physical cause and at this point, are not something to worry about. We do need to keep an eye on them going forward. One of the difficult parts of raising a child with Autism is communication, at least in my family. My kids are brilliant and most have extraordinary language skills. The problem is that they struggle to express anything related to themselves. Introspection is not an area of their life in which they are gifted. This is also on if the biggest obstacles that impede progress in helping them deal with their mom leaving.…

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Back at @AkronChildrens Hospital again today

It's been a crazy busy morning. Elliott never fell asleep and Emmett was up on and off throughout the night as well. Both boys made it to school today but Elliott was in an awful mood. Emmett was only there for a short time cause as soon as I was done walking, I needed to get him to Akron Children's Hospital for his eye exam. Emmett's been complaining about seeing spots that actually block his vision. He thought it was normal, so he never said anything about it until recently. We're currently in the dilation room waiting for the second part of his exam. He's doing pretty good, even though he hates the eye drops. I'll let you know how it goes.

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I spoke with the school again today

It's been an exhausting day and I'm not even halfway through it. I have three more appointments before dinner and I'm running on empty. I spoke with the school and met with Emmett's teacher to discuss the problems with his journal entries. They're very flexible with the topics and happy to work with him. Emmett and I spent some time working on school work this morning and brainstorming ideas for his journal. Shortly after lunch, he went to spend some time with my Mom. I feel that he needed this time and it will do him some good. It's probably the best thing I could have done for him today and all I can do is what I feel is right. I'm getting ready to walk into therapy for myself…

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One step closer

Part of preparing for our upcoming trip is getting Ruby ready to be boarded. In order to do that, she needed a check up and a vaccine for kennel cough. Emmett was with me at this point and we took Ruby to the vet together. He was a big help and Ruby did awesome. She didn't need muzzled and that is always a good thing. Ruby is a really good dog but the first time she met the vet, she was really freaked out and kept growling. She had to be muzzled as a precaution. Since then, she's done great and yesterday was no expection. Afterwards, we figured we'd take her for a short walk and sorta reward her for doing such a good job. We ended up at the…

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Welcome to the f*cking brink of insanity

I'm getting very close to the end of my rope today and teetering on the brink of insanity. My kids are amazing and I love the completely. They are, however, struggling a great deal and it's impacting every aspect of our lives. Elliott has been in a horrible mood, all day long. He's being mean to his brother and refusing to cooperate at every turn. I happen to know that he's very angry, scared, confused and heartbroken. I also know that he's desperately trying to regain some control in his life and is taking it to an extreme. I get it and I'm not angry but this isn't productive and we need to find better ways of managing our pain. Emmett had a massive emotional breakdown tonight. He was trying…

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This kids inspires me every single day

A rough night lead to a challenging morning but all was not lost. Emmett had nightmares all night long. They were particularly cruel and unrelenting this time. To make matters worse, he woke up around 5:30 AM with a nose bleed. By the time the alarm went off, he was pretty much on the verge of a panic attack. He was shaking, nauseous and exhausted. He was already convinced that he was not going to be able to manage school today. We were supposed to bump things up to 2 hours a day this week and he was freaking out. The poor kid was completely over his limit and it wasn't looking like a particularly good start to the week, even by Monday's standards. Rather than give up, I encouraged…

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