We’ve been on #COVID-19 Lockdown for 100 Days

We hit a milestone today that was not on my 2020 bingo card. The kids and I have been on COVID-19 lockdown for 100 days now. When I say lockdown, I mean zero contact with anyone in 100 days. The only exception was the kids seeing their mom for two or three days after her household went on quarantine for two weeks. This has been a pretty strick lockdown due to the fact Gavin is immunocompromised. While I don't think he's necessarily more likely to catch it, he's more likely to have a negative outcome, therefore he's considered very high risk. I have to take this very, very seriously and so we've spent the last 100 days making sure that we are quarantined, so there is as little risk as…

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I haven’t felt this overwhelmed in a long time

Over the last decade, this blog has evolved into whatever it is now. One of the things that have remained consistent throughout is the honesty with with I write. I may not write as much anymore and my writing isn't as inspiring as it once was, but it's just as honest as the day is long. I'm writing tonight because I feel like I'm failing in so many areas of my life. In fairness, I do realize that a large part of this is my depression talking but I'm pretty sure I'd feel like this anyway. It's been a particularly difficult day because I'm not handling Gavin very well. Gavin's in a very weird place right now and I don't know what's going on with him. He's regressing in a…

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I’m so grateful for yesterday

I fell asleep last night before I could finish writing and while that's a bit inconvenient, I'm grateful that I fell asleep. Sleep has been very problematic as of late. Anyway, the boys and I had a pretty good day. I think I mentioned that my lawn mower died after about 15 years of use and 8 had to order a new one. It was delivered yesterday afternoon and I was able to get the yard cut. It's fantastic and I can't wait for the grass to grow back so I can use it again. We spent some time cleaning out the garage and making a new home for the mower. I put our old one out by the curb and it was snatched up very quickly. I suppose it's…

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If my sensory sensitive kids with #Autism can wear a mask, WTF is your excuse?

I know I'm not writing nearly as often as I normally do and the truth is, depression is really kicking my ass. I'm still functional but definitely struggling. As of today, we've been on lockdown for 98 straight days. As you can probably imagine, it's running a bit long in the tooth at this point. Unfortunately, there simply isn't any other options. With Gavin being immunocompromised, there literally isn't another way to keep him safe. We're in this for the long haul and that's likely to be awhile. I've been hearing from readers both here and on social media, that their husband, wife, daughter, son or other loved one is immunocompromised as well and they're in the exact same boat. While my heart goes out to all the other families…

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I’m really grateful for today

The boys and I had a pretty good day. I didn't sleep well last night, again but I made it through the day. One of the things on our to do list today was getting everyone out for some exercise. Gavin was very resistant because he's afraid of getting sick. The path we took almost never has anyone but bikers. Even if they're not wearing a mask, they blow by so quickly, there's no contact. We ended up having to walk by one person and we wore our masks because it's the right thing to do. The rest of the time we were able to breathe fresh air. We had a great time and even took Ruby along with us. Gavin did awesome and felt much better about going. It's…

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We snuck out for a bit today

We had a pretty good day today. I didn't sleep well last night and my kids were kind enough to let me sleep this morning. I very much appreciate that. The only thing on the agenda for today was getting some exercise in. Elliott has been chomping at the bit to go walking. Thankfully, we were able to get out for a little while. We went on a short hike and while there were other people present in the park, we didn't come into contact with anyone. Right now, no contact is a very good thing. Gavin is just out of frame. I didn't take many pictures today because I wanted to enjoy the time without a screen. Yes, we had our masks. When we are not around anyone, we…

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Helping my family stay connected during this trying time

So I figured out a way to stay better connected with my family while on lockdown. We've tried Zoom and Hangouts but it was a bit clunky and frustrated the kids. Last week I ordered a Facebook Portal Camera for our TV. I'm not a fan of Facebook and under different circumstances, I wouldn't be doing this. That said, it's proven to be really amazing for everyone. The boys are able to use this with their mom to help them feel like they're in the same room. They can play games, read stories and apparently, even watch movies together. We haven't figured that part out just yet though. The camera sits on top or in front of the TV My hope was to help keep everyone connected in a way…

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Who wouldn’t be overwhelmed by all of this?

It's been a seriously shitty few days for a number of reasons and I've just lost interest in writing. There isn't one particular thing that's to blame but rather a multitude of things, most of which are outside of my control. It goes without saying the this country is in total chaos. I completely support the protesters and the Black Lives Matter movement. If I were able, I would be marching right along with everyone else. It's heartbreaking to see everything that's going on and it makes me so angry to see those in power, doing nothing, or even worse, standing in the way of addressing police brutality and the systemic racism that's festering in this country.  I'm disgusted by the Republican party and absolutely despise Trump and all he…

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