Read more about the article I can’t think of a fucking title for this
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I can’t think of a fucking title for this

I've accomplished a whole lot of nothing today. I know that I probably should care or at least feel a little guilty but I don't. I mean, I spent some time with my kids and did actually mulch the leaves again. I suppose that's my claim to fame for the moment and I'm cool with that. This week should be quite interesting because I'm scheduled to record my final interview for season 3 of the pod and I'll wrap things up with 40 episodes. That's actually quite an accomplishment and the pod continues to grow every week. Anyway, I have a few episodes left in post but nothing new scheduled after this week. I'm kinda excited about that. The timing is perfect because Emmett's new school schedule starts this week…

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November 8, 2020
Read more about the article Life is so fucking exhausting anymore
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Life is so fucking exhausting anymore

It's been a few days folks and I apologize for that. Ohio is worse than it's ever been in regards to COVID and we're clocking over 4,000 cases a day now. It's really stressful trying to manage this alone but it has to get done. I'm fucking exhausted but holding on for now. I'm working on making sure we have enough basic supplies to last us a little while. No, I'm not talking about hoarding. I'm simply making sure we have what we need to make it through a very challenging winter. I've been working as much as I can but to be completely honest, it's difficult to focus right now. For the most part, I make my own hours but some jobs have deadlines. The rest of the time…

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November 6, 2020
Read more about the article This is going to be a stressful week
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This is going to be a stressful week

We've got another week of quarantine ahead of us and I'm super excited about that. I'm definitely not excited. We actually have until a vaccine and established herd immunity left of quarantine. The reason I say one week is because I'm taking it one week at a time. Baby steps or I'll end up losing my mind. I've got a couple of interviews this week and that will round out the 40 episodes I planned for season 3. I will have five episodes in post and will release those over the next five weeks before closing off the season 3. This is a really bad camera angle. It makes Emmett's head look enormous. He was extra snugly today for some reason but I'm not complaining. ☺ The boys have a…

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November 2, 2020
Read more about the article It’s not been a terrible day
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It’s not been a terrible day

It's not a secret that I struggle with sleep. Most autism and special needs parents struggle with sleep. I'm simply following that same unwritten rule that we must constantly function while chronically sleep deprived. Anyway, I had the best night of sleep last night. My sleep score was in the 80's and I woke up feeling pretty goddam amazing. Emmett slept in his room all night long and I'm sure that helped. I'm also sleeping on a new Purple mattress and OMG, it's amazing. My back is a little sore because I have to get used to a completely different type of mattress but it's amazing. I've been waking up in the same position I feel asleep in and that's unusual for me. I'll have more on that later. Anyway,…

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November 1, 2020
Read more about the article My kids are disappointed but it’s out of my control
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My kids are disappointed but it’s out of my control

The boys don't have school today because their is a Halloween event instead. I don't necessarily agree with hosting an event in person whilst Ohio is logging nearly 4,000 new COVID cases a day. I do, however, appreciate what they are trying to do for the kids. They're exercising caution and following guidelines but I still wouldn't take the chance. It doesn't really matter for us because the car is still in the bodyshop. I'm not sure how much longer she's gonna be there but it's already been a few weeks. It will probably be another week or so. The kids are disappointed but it's out of my control. While I would have likely chosen not to participate, I didn't have to make that decision. Also, while Lizze and her…

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October 31, 2020
Read more about the article What does sleep look like for #autism parents?
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What does sleep look like for #autism parents?

Parents often struggle with sleep, especially when their kids are younger. Parents of special needs kids struggle with sleep all the time. I'm one of those parents. If I had it my way, I'd be in bed at 10pm every night and sleep straight through until 7am. Unfortunately, my kids don't cooperate with that. They each struggle with sleep disturbances, that we haven't been able to work through. For the most part, Gavin's doing really well with sleep. The issue is with Elliott and Emmett. Elliott claims to be a night owl and needs to be awake at night. His doctor and I call bullshit on that. The issue is sleep hygiene and poor sleep habits. In other words, he needs a better bedtime routine and a reset to his…

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October 28, 2020
Read more about the article Exhausting efforts and interventions
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Exhausting efforts and interventions

It's been a really frustrating day. Gavin's been struggling behaviorally and I honestly don't have the patience to deal with the outbursts. In fairness, Gavin is doing so much better overall and he's come such a long way. I'm incredibly proud of him. At the same time, there are things we need to work on. Gavin has a really short fuse and it doesn't take a whole lot to set him off. Today I was watching Bob's Burgers, and Gavin sat down to eat lunch. He's got this weird thing with shows like this and I'm not sure I understand where he's coming from. Usually, he will get up and leave the room if something he doesn't like comes on. Today he was eating lunch, so he didn't really have…

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October 26, 2020