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I think we might be off to a good start

I had a really difficult time sleeping last night. I finally gave up about 2:00 AM and moved to the couch. The issue for me last night was an inability to shut my brain off. I watched TV for a little while before I was finally able to fall asleep. The boys slept well though and they even slept in a bit. That aloud me to sleep in as well. Everyone is getting along and I'm feeling like we're off to a great start for the week. 😁

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March 27, 2017

My thoughts

It’s Spring Break and I’m trying not to stress out over it

Today marks the first official week of Spring Break. This means that the boys will be home all week. Spring Break is like a practice run for Summer Vacation. We get a chance to remember how challenging it is before we're thrown into roughly one hundred days of the boys being home. I really enjoy the boys being home but we need to plan for things that will keep them occupied, and TV/video games will only make up a tiny part of those plans. Things are a bit tight financially because I lost a good chunk of my income and that's actually something I need to talk about, but in a different entry. I'm not sure how the weather's going to hold up this week. If it's nice, we can…

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March 26, 2017

Autism Parenting Woes / My thoughts

My kids are driving me completely insane today and here’s why

Holy shit..... My kids are driving me completely bonkers today. I like to think I'm in a good enough place to be able to cope longer with some of this stuff but not today. Gavin will not stop talking. In fact, he literally follows me around the house, talking at me and not to me. I have to actually tell him to stop talking to me, and hate doing that but I swear to God, if he doesn't stop, I'm going to lose my mind. Elliott and Emmett are both handfuls as well. Elliott is generally disagreeable and easily irritated. He's doing this thing where he feels the need to correct what other people are saying and it's driving me nuts. Emmett's meltdown meter is buried in the red, meaning…

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March 26, 2017

Gavin / My thoughts / Today's Victory

We’re celebrating a little victory today

I've written this post out twice now and each time WordPress somehow eats it. For that reason, I'm going to keep this short and sweet.. I took Gavin with me to the grocery store the other day. He always wants to push the cart but I usually avoid this because he doesn't pay attention to his surroundings. He tends to run into people and things. This time however, we weren't in a hurry and I could keep a close eye on him. You should see the look in his eyes when he can push the cart. It's very similar to a parent tossing their new teen driver the keys to the car. He actually did pretty well. I had to stay on him but no one was hurt and nothing…

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March 26, 2017

My thoughts

This shouldn’t be allowed to happen

Lizze and I finally have a night off and we have the ability to sleep, without worry about the kids. All week long, we dream of the next time we will be in this same position. We sorta live from one of these moments to the next, if that makes sense. When facing the amount of struggle we do on a daily basis, we need a light at the end of the tunnel. Here's the fucked up part. The first chance we have in three weeks to crash and neither one of us can fall asleep. This should not be allowed to happen to parents in situations like these. I think the problem lies in the fact that our sleep cycles are so messed up, that even if or when…

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March 25, 2017

My thoughts

We finally have a night to ourselves

The boys are gone for the night. This means Lizze and I have our first break in about three weeks or so. I'm not gonna lie, we absolutely need this break. We didn't do much of anything, it was a chill out and watch a movie kinda night. We ordered pizza and watched the rest of Iron Fist on Netflix. Awesome show by the way.. ☺ It's been a long few weeks and we're both exhausted. Between everyone being sick, the boys being home for seven straight days and the major server issues, my stress level has been through the roof. I've not been sleeping well and I've been struggling with my healthier diet. I plan on sleeping well tonight, sleeping in and if I'm feeling better, sneak in a…

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March 25, 2017

Elliott / My thoughts / School Related Issues

The heartbreaking letter my son with #Autism wrote

Before we go into this post, I want to be clear that Elliott wants me to share this personal journal entry of his. He hopes other kids will learn something from him. There's so much to catch you up on, and I'm trying to get there, but it's been one problem after another. This is something that I wanted to get out there for Elliott because it's important to him. The other day, Elliott fell down the stairs at school. He banged his body up a little, and he's sore, but otherwise physically okay. The only reason I even found out about this, is because he was in tears when he climbed into the car after school. I asked him what was wrong and he explained how he'd fallen down…

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March 24, 2017

Gavin / My thoughts

When good news is heartbreaking

I wanted to share some insight into what it's like to be heartbroken by good news. I know that sounds weird but let me explain. On Tuesday, we were informed that Gavin has graduated from speech therapy. He had brought his scores up in several areas and he no longer fit the criteria that would enable him to continue. On the surface that sounds like amazing news and in some ways it is. Gavin's worked very hard to make some of these improvements and we're proud of him. The heartbreak comes when you see beneath the surface and understand what this graduation really amounts to. The reality that my wife and I face is that we're so happy and proud of Gavin for doing so well in speech. On the…

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March 24, 2017