Keeping everyone’s head above water when I’m barely threading it myself

We're leaving in a few minutes because Lizze has another doctor's appointment this afternoon. It's just a dentist appointment and so it's nothing major. I was able to sneak a nap in this morning and that's helped to recharge my batteries enough to feel better. Gavin's been doing well today but he's also been very quiet. Perhaps he's been going on some new missions and that's why he's been holed up in his bedroom. There are still piles of things weighing on me today and the stress I feel as a result is significant. I'm hoping to find a way to process some of these things more effectively because continuing to carry them with me is simply no longer an option. I'm experiencing a large amount of anxiety this afternoon…

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Everything is catching up to me and I’m crashing

We overslept today but the boys got to school on time. I'm so tired and all I want to do is go to bed. I've not been sleeping well lately and so I'm more exhausted than what would be considered typical. I opted to not go walking today because I'm too tired. Lizze has a doctor's appointment this afternoon and as a result, her mom is picking the kids up from school because of the timing conflict. I'm probably going to take a nap while Gavin's taking his morning nap. I haven't taken a nap in forever but I won't make it through today unless I close my eyes for a couple hours. There are a few jobs that I need to work on this afternoon but that's about it.…

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Why I’m so proud of Gavin today

As I've said many times, I'm trying to focus on the positive. It's not always easy to do but I've found that there is almost always something I can add to the positive column. Sometimes I have to look a bit harder than other times but there's usually something there. Today I'm needing to dig a bit deeper but I do have something positive to share with the rest of the class. I mentioned earlier that I had to take Gavin to get his blood work done. Historically, Gavin and blood work have been an absolute nightmare. Gavin wouldn't cooperate and would get very aggressive with the people trying to draw his blood. He would end up having to be restrained, security would show up and it never went well.…

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Here’s how my morning has been

The boys got off to school without any issues. We were a few minutes late but we made it. ☺ I opted to go walking on the way home. Zero percent of me wanted to do that but one hundred percent of me knew it was best that I did. It's 24°F and that's pretty fucking cold. It was snowing as well and that made it a bit more uncomfortable but I was able to get 3.1 miles done. My intention was to return home, warm up and get something to eat but I knew that Gavin needed his blood work ASAP. I figured I was already in the car and we should just get it done now. At the moment, I'm waiting on Gavin done so we can head…

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