After a long, physically and emotionally draining weekend, I'm feeling like we ended up being very lucky. Gavin's emergency was dire and very scary. It's impossible to explain what it felt like in those moments leading up to calling 911. Both Elliott and Emmett were affected by the experience. You can't see the things they saw and not be impacted by it. Elliott seems to be doing okay. Although truthfully, he internalizes everything and it may be a bit before we know how much he was impacted. Emmett was most visibly upset. He was distraught seeing Gavin in the condition he was in. He was afraid Gavin was going to die. Poor Emmett was curled up in the fetal position sobbing in the corner of his bed. It was so…

I slept like a baby last night. The level of exhaustion I was experiencing was beyond words, and I'm so grateful for the excellent night's sleep. Lizze isn't fairing as well because of her body's reaction to extreme stress. It had been an incredibly stressful 24 hours, and she's now paying the price. Anyway, Elliott is getting sick with an upper respiratory thing, and I'm unsure of what he will be looking at for school this week. Emmett's super hyper and a bit emotionally overwhelmed by everything that transpired but is otherwise doing well. Gavin is doing well. He slept through the night and is doing well as he builds up the levels of clozapine in his system. Miss. Ruby has finally shed her cone of shame, and she couldn't…

Gavin was up at an ungodly hour this morning once again. I'm going to give his doctor until I'm done walking to call me back. If I don't hear from them by then, I'm calling back. Squeaky wheel will be my middle name. The boys leave for school shortly, and I'll hit the track for about an hour or so. I'm going to try and record a pod today about managing crises because we're quickly approaching that with Gavin and it's important to talk about. We also have some Spring cleaning to continue working on, and I'd like to visit my grandmother. I'm determined to make this a good day and will make the best of whatever life sees fit to throw in my direction.