Lizze has an appointment now and I am home with the kids. Gavin is having a great day and is napping. Elliott Richard is in our room watching Noggin. Emmett John is sleeping in the office. I'm buried under 2 dogs playing worms 2 on the 360. So far so good. Lost and Tired Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

On the Emmett John front we made some progress. He has finally begun using some of the signs we are teaching him. He signed "daddy" last night. It was amazing!!! We won't get into the children's hospital until March. His ped. Is working to get him in quicker. Lost and Tired Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

We went to pick up Gavin from school expecting the worst. We pick him up and find he had a perfect day after the meltdown when he first got there. We are both floored by this. Honestly I expected the worst day ever. Good job making great choices Gavin. Hopefully it carries thru the weekend. Lost and Tired Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

So today is jeans day at Gavin's school. Gavin doesn't like jean so we got permission for him to wear his tan cargo pants. Gavin came down this morning in some camouflage pants. He can't wear those because the bother some of the other kids (it's a pattern thing). All I did was explain that to him and he exploded. it was so bad that Elliott Richard wet himself and the dog wet the floor. He also broke a stair tread on his way upstairs. I went up after him to calm him down which was a waste of time and precious energy. I showed him the pants he was allowed to wear. I also told him if he didn't control himself that he would wear his regular school pants…

On the Emmett John front we made some progress. He has finally begun using some of the signs we are teaching him. He signed "daddy" last night. It was amazing!!! We won't get into the children's hospital until March. His ped. Is working to get him in quicker. Lost and Tired Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

I am laying next to Emmett John singing to him and he keeps digging at his ears.  Then he takes my finger and puts it in his ear.  It was like he was say "daddy please fix my ears". I cried...

Gavin had a pretty good morning all things considered. Lizze and I are trying to keep it together in light of all we have going on. We keep wondering what happened. He passed his hearing test when he was born. What happened between now and then to cause his hearing loss? There are 2 likely possibilities as to what happened. The first one is that the first test was wrong when he was born. The second is the constant ear infections. All we know for sure is his tube are not blocked and he doesn't have an ear infection now. If the next test comes back and confirms the first test then we will know the extent. I really think this is just one of those things that happen and…

How are you supposed to cope with any of this stuff. As a parent I feel like a complete failure, like I missed something. How does this even happen. I have so many questions. Has Emmett John ever heard my voice? Did we do something wrong? I'm trying to remain focused on helping him but I feel helpless. I can't imagine going through life not being able to hear. We have been learning sign language the past few weeks and Lizze is really all over it.  We are going to get Emmett John in therapy so he can learn sign language also and have a way to communicate with us. Please keep him in your prayers.Lost and Tired