It appears that Gavin may be getting more manic if that makes sense. This morning it appears as though the voices may be coming back. It's little things right now like "I thought you told me to do....." When we haven't even said a word or weren't even in the same room. This is how it usually begins. Eventually it will get to the point of full blown psychosis. He will play cards with people that aren't there while having full fledged conversations back and forth with them also. When he was younger we would find him standing in our room at night "watching us sleep". It gets really creepy and honestly dangerous because we don't always know what the voices tell him to do. We installed an alarm on…

So its been a few days since my last post. Elliott Richard's birthday is Thursday. I can't believe its been 4 years. It feels like it was just yesterday that I would fall asleep next to Lizze at night with my arm around her and my hand on her belly. He would kick my hand all night long. I remember Lizze going on bedrest and having very, very serious complications. She spent weeks in the hospital. I remember when she developed a DVT in her leg. It was really bad because they could not find the clot and her leg had swelled up to twice the normal size. They could do very little to help her without the risk of hurting Elliott Richard. Up to that point in my life…

It has already begun. Gavin had a meltdown because we caught him trying to pull one over on us. He wanted to go to the attic and get some toys under the guise of "giving it to Elliott for his birthday". I told him no for right now. He wanted to get the toys for himself and not for Elliott. Sometime I can read him like a book. I told him I know what he was trying to do and it wasn't a good choice. So he lost it because he knew he was busted. Then the "fun" began. He started smacking himself in the face and jumping up and down. This is all for show and we know that. He is choosing to do this and could stop at…

Gavin has slept most of the day like we knew he would. Zyprexa (sp?) has a sedative effect on him. What really crazy is that if you or I took that amount of this med we would be out for a very long time. Gavin just gets sleepy when its adjusted and that's it. His body handles meds a lot different then most. He metabolizes them very quickly. That is one reason stabilizing him medically is so tough. It should be a relatively quiet weekend. Elliott Richard turns 4 years old next week. I can't believe it has been 4 years already. Got to start thinking about dinner. Lost and Tired Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®

We kept Gavin home from school today because he started his increased dose (double) of his anti-psychotic. This will have him sleeping for most of the day. There is no point sending him if all he will do is sleep. So hopefully by monday most of the sleepiness will be gone. All the kids are in a mood this morning. Elliott Richard wouldn't go to sleep last night and Emmett John wouldn't stay asleep last night. So Lizze and I didn't get much sleep either (par for the course). Maggie chewed off her bandage last night but seems to be doing ok. She ran through broken glass the other day (that someone threw into our yard) and shredded her back foot. She is doing much better now. That's it for…

This has been a really long week. We met with the school to discuss teachers. That went really well. Gavin had Dr. R yesterday. He is defiantly manic. Waiting on blood work in order to address bipolar meds. We learned that Gavin has an actual God complex. It is part of the bipolar. He starts increased anti-psycotics in the morning. He had a rough day today so hopefully friday will be better. Both Elliott and Emmett's sleep cycles are thrown off. They are up around 5am each morning like clockwork. Speaking of Emmett John he goes to the children's hospital on the 29th of March for the ABR testing. We also located sign language classes for us. Lizze is still adjusting to her meds increase but is hanging in there.…

Its been a bit since I posted but I have just been to tired and overwhelmed. Things are about as bad as they have been. Gavin is manic and we can't get in to see his doctor till march. As a result the stress level is through the roof. He picked up a full 5 gallon water jug and tried to hurl it yesterday. He was mad because we caught him lying to us. Lizze is really struggling with her fibro and everything that goes along with that. Pain management has doubled all of her meds so she is extremely sleepy all the time and impossible to wake up. But she is in so much pain all the time it's very difficult to watch her move around because you can…

Today has been the longest ever. Everyone seems to be on edge. No one seems to be sleeping well. Emmett John appears to be getting sick again. Elliott Richard is bored and suffering from cabin fever. Things have been sort of uneventful the past day or so. Which is good, obviously. But today went down hill pretty quick. Gavin was sitting on the couch watching TV this afternoon with us. Elliott Richard was sitting on the couch also. Next thing we know Elliott Richard is curled up nest to Gavin and Gavin has both arms around him with his hands on Elliott Richards butt. Gavin announced to everyone in the room to look at him because he was snuggling Elliott Richard and don't they look cute. We removed Elliott Richard…