Gavin and Emmett John both had pretty tough days. Elliott Richard was pretty much along for the ride. Gavin ended up with oatmeal for dinner (which is actually an MST technique). The oatmeal for anyone who thinks it's cruel or mean is used as a consequence for certain behaviors that must be discouraged. Behaviors such as violence and inappropriate touching. These behaviors will get him in lots of trouble as he gets older. We love him and we don't want him to have that happen so his doctors have said it's extremely important that we deal with it now. Oatmeal is very healthy for you. He simply doesn't like it without sugar. So he gets a bowl of plain oatmeal. It's the only thing we have left to discourage these…

We noticed today that Emmett John no longer uses the same tones for things. They have changed. We are starting all over now trying to figure out what he is saying. What does this mean? I don't know what to think of this. Why does he hurt Lizze by biting and scratching her? I can't remember if Gavin did this. Why can't I remember? We have been trying to put him to bed for a bit now and he is just screaming. We have tried to feed him and gave him his sippy but nothing. We have to figure something out. He needs us to understand. LT

Gavin and puberty are not mixing well together. He has become very volatile and confused. This is probably because his meds are not working correctly any more. We are and have been maxed out for a while now but they were working. Now were are trying some different dosages of the same meds attempting to avoid the only med we have left to try, lithium. He was caught today encouraging Emmett John to climb under his shirt. We had looked away for a second (literally) and we caught Gavin with his shirt up and Emmett John up to his waist inside. We immediately removed Emmett John and pulled Gavin aside and questioned him. He denied the whole thing like we were idiots. He could not answer why he did it.…

Gavin has been acting very strange lately. We had him to Dr. R this week and we decided that he is over medicated. Well at least we think so. We are going to drop down on the zyprexa and leaving the depakote alone. This is the last ditch effort to avoid lithium. He's back to not sleeping again. Last night he was up till 1am. He walks around like he's a zombie. There's no life in him right now. He says he's fine but that cannot be true. I don't think he even knows what's going on. I'm not sure how much time we are going to give this before we pull the plug. The zyprexa made the voices go away. Now I think they may be coming back but…

Lizze has had a really rough day today. Emmett John tried to make mommy feel better. Very sweet...

I did it. I did what the Best Buy "Geek Squad" said was impossible. My sister Kate had all of her graduate work on a usb thumb drive. The drive went bad and she lost everything. She didn't want to bother us at first so she asked the Geek Squad. They said it couldn't be done. I got a good portion recovered. So I say to the over priced and under experienced Geek Squad "stick that in your pipe and smoke it". Score one for the little guy. LT

For the second time this week poor Elliott Richard has got his fingers slammed in the door. Today he was trying to keep Emmett John from sneaking into the bathroom. All he is doing is trying to look out for his little brother. Emmett John has no fear so we have to constantly follow him around. Elliott Richard feels he has to look out for him also because he loves him. Inevitably, Elliott Richard gets hurt in the process. He takes being a big brother very seriously. I just wish isn't wasn't so dangerous. LT

The kids are going to my parents tonight. They help us out even to their own detriment. I wish we had other family that could help them out but we don't fit nicely in many others lives so my family is really all we have left. Anyway, Lizze has an MRI in the morning to rule out a brain tumor as the cause of the debilitating migraines. They are also trying to find an causes for her neuronopathy. She also has tremors so they are looking for that cause also. She has never had an MRI of her brain before so this is a big (and nerve wrecking) day. We don't expect to find anything cause all her CAT Scans have been clean. However, this will serve as a baseline…