Some times I just wish I could run away from my life. I'm tired, frustrated, angry, pissed off and done with everything. I would give just about anything to move out of my neighborhood but I can't. We have 2 or 3 neighbors that I could never replace and would truly miss. I haven't had a good nights sleep in so long (years, literally years). Sometimes I don't even feel I can even function anymore. I was just about to lay down last night and both kids woke up at the same time. We had some inconsiderate neighbors that were being entirely to loud and woke up both kids. ER was hysterical I don't think he was feeling well to start with. 0nce he woke up he didn't go back…

Today has been hell. Gavin was throwing meltdown after meltdown. He almost smashed EJ's fingers in the door when he slammed it in his rage. He actually threw something at me today when I shut his window in order to spare the neighbors from his screaming. I'm very quickly getting to a point where I have nothing left to give him. If he had smashed EJ's fingers they would be broken for sure. He slammed the door so hard it rattled the windows. I don't know what I would have done and that honestly scares me. Gavin is getting more and more aggressive. We can't get the doctor to call us back either. He is honestly a horrible example for the other kids. I don't know if he is even…

Houston we have a problem. Oatmeal, which has been the only deterrent is losing effectiveness. He now just stalls until there's no longer a point. The only thing we would have left to do is adjust it so that if he doesn't finish in a predetermined amount of time then it gets pushed of to the next meal. The problem with that is he will choose not to eat. It will then become a power struggle. Before anyone says that rewards work better then consequences be aware the rewards or incentives DO NOT work. Gavin exploits the situation and then we have to stop. For example if we reward him for getting his meltdown under control then he will begin having the meltdowns just to be rewarded for stopping. So…

It's been a rough day but Gavin has been very difficult. Gavin has listened at all today. He just seems to ignore the rules anymore. I swear to God if I hear him say "I'm sorry" one more time my head is going to explode. He's only saying sorry because he got busted. He doesn't learn from his mistakes. We are seeing more of the mental health issues at work here. These problem's go way deeper then Autism alone. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take. I gave him chance after chance today and he still choose poorly. So he had oatmeal for dinner. He had almost 30 min to eat a really tiny bowl. He didn't cause he was stalling. What he didn't know…

It's been a rough day but Gavin has been very difficult. Gavin has listened at all today. He just seems to ignore the rules anymore. I swear to God if I hear him say "I'm sorry" one more time my head is going to explode. He's only saying sorry because he got busted. He doesn't learn from his mistakes. We are seeing more of the mental health issues at work here. These problem's go way deeper then Autism alone. I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take. I gave him chance after chance today and he still choose poorly. So he had oatmeal for dinner. He had almost 30 min to eat a really tiny bowl. He didn't cause he was stalling. What he didn't know…

So I go to my mailbox and get a letter from the bank that we over drafted. So I log in to my account to see what happened. I looked over the account and ALL activity. I should have never over drafted. I was never over my limit at all. The over draft or should I say over drafts (4 total) however have caused lots of over drafts themselves. I have a call into the bank and I'm sure they will figure it out but until then I have lots of money but it looks like this. "$ -xxx.xx". :( At least they didn't screw up the business account. Posted with WordPress for BlackBerry.

So I have been thinking. Wouldn't Autistic children benefit from a year round school year. It would prevent or help to prevent the loss that occurs over summer break. The kids love and need their routine. It would also serve as a sort of respite for parents. Gavin would benefit from this tremendously. He loses far to much progress during summer break. I know funding is an issue but there are always ways around that. Just a thought. LT Posted with WordPress for BlackBerry.

ER was playing Toy Story Mania on the computer. Gavin started telling him what to do which makes ER frustrated. I told Gavin he had to stop or he was going to his room. BAM, not 5 mins later he's yelling at ER to get more points. So he went to his room. We try to be as consistent as possible. He needs to abide by societies standards and laws in the real world. So we have to teach him while we can. LT Posted with WordPress for BlackBerry.