We are changing Gavins anti-psychotic meds starting in the morning. At this point I don't hold out much hope for them to work. Honestly, I don't hold out much hope period. However, my outlook will get better as I adjust to all the changes going on around me. We have been in a power struggle with Gavin since yesterday morning over the oatmeal. All he has to do is eat a SMALL bowl in 15 minutes and then he's free to have something else. That's more then enough time to finish what we give him. Originally there was no time limit but that didn't work cause he would just sit there all day. So we added the time limit as a motivation. The problem is that he drags his feet…

What are you supposed to do when you hear the word schizophrenia used in the same sentence as your 10 year old son's name? It feels like the end of the road. As far as mental health goes can it get any worse? You might say "at least you're not dealing with a sociopath" to which I would respond "that's on the list of possibles as well. Is it really possible to have all these separate conditions? So far we have a rare form of aspergers,ocd,pica,sid,bipolar,psychosis,ptsd,adha and now schizophrenia. There are more in the list then what I named but I can't think straight now. Are we even qualified to be doing this? Hell, the professionals don't even know what to do. I honestly saw this coming, we both did.…

Lizze got back from Gavin's appointment tonight and dropped a bombshell. Dr. P thinks he has childhood schizophrenia. She has been thinking it for quiet awhile and we have talked about it before. They also talk hospitalization for medical stabilization. Once the kids are down we are going to talk more in depth but for now this is what we know. LT

I want to talk about what no one wants to talk about for just a minute. As a special needs parent in general but autism more specifically we are so focused on our kids that we often neglect ourselves. That needs to change. Who will take care of your kids if something happens to you? It's an unpleasant topic but a vitally important one. We need to take care of ourselves in order to ensure we are here for as long as possible to take care of our special needs kids. I'm very guilty of letting myself go. I was weight training 6 days a week for many years and running almost everyday. I was in amazing shape. Now after a career ending back injury and 3 kids I'm struggling.…

Lizze took ER to camp this morning and left me home with Gavin. Gavin was still sleeping when she left. When she came home he was standing "in" his window waving to her. We have told him many times that he cannot do that and why. We drop the top sash of his window down so he can still get air into his room. He's less likely to hurt himself this way. He stands on the windows sill and pulls himself up so he is leaning against the screen. He's on the second floor so it's a good drop. I"m afraid we might have to secure something over the windows now. Right now the only thing we have that works is the oatmeal. So after is giant meltdown over getting…

Ok. So much has happened in the past few days. As you may have noticed my blog has changed. I'm now an official website. This was made possible through a random act of kindness. Until I get permission I won't go into details. I'm so happy to have this new site. I now have the freedom to do so much more. Thank you for making this possible for me. This is still a work in progress but I'm up and running now. My new address is . Twitter doesn't appear to be updating correctly but I'm working on that. Facebook is working so please be sure to check out the Lost and Tired facebook page and become a "fan". That's it for now. Thanks for following me over here. I…

My wife has a new article up at the examiner.com. Please give her a click. It's a great article and each click helps pay the bills and support our family. Here is the short link: Cleveland Examiner.com. Thanks LT Posted without proper editing tools from my Blackberry.

A friend sent me a message on Facebook today. She had some information she thought we might be able to use. I was touched by the gesture but what really hit was what she said later. I'll share that in a minute. I have said many times that I wish people understood what it was like to be in our shoes. She responded to that honestly by saying, " I cant say that I understand completely except from one parent to another your happy when they are happy, you laugh when they laugh, you cry when they cry because you love them so much. " That statement really hit me. If more people felt that way then maybe we could bridge the gap. Maybe we wouldn't have to feel so…