Thanks Everyone

Well today's my 32nd Birthday and I now have 61 subscribers to my examiner page. I was hoping for 50 by today but you guys exceeded my expectations. I would like to say thank you to everyone for helping to support the Lost and Tired family this way. If you haven't yet subscribed (for free) and would like to click on the "Support the Lost and Tired Family" at the top of this page for instructions. I haven't been writing as much as I used to. Basically, things are pretty bad right now and I haven't had the energy to write about everything. I'm going to make an effort to fix this because even if it's depressing to read (and it is) I want people to know what life is…

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Hanging by a thread

Gavin is causing everyone grief. He has Elliott Richard so scared (from all the stories and thoughts he shares with him) that he won't be by himself even for a minute. Elliott Richard won't even use the bathroom because he's so afraid. This is when the whole adopted child vs biological child comes into play for me. Gavin is causing ER to be in distress. I know I would be just as upset if Gavin was my bio child but the fact is he's not. Everything in me is telling me to make ER and EJ safe and I can't find a way to do that with Gavin here. His problems have sucked the life out of this family and now EJ is following in his footsteps. EJ has become…

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Autism: Tough decisions

We are quickly approaching the point where Gavin needs to go back to the hospital. He has lost touch with reality and talking to people that aren't there. He is have both audio and visual hallucinations again. The facial ticks have returned and he is being weaned off the meds he was on. This presents a major problem because he gets worse as the meds are removed. It's a double edged sword. He is living almost completely in his imagination anymore and it's actually very confusing and frustrating for everyone. He's also afraid that we are going to send him back. We explained that it wasn't a punishment but he doesn't get that. He is telling Elliott that if he has anymore meltdowns that someone is going to come and…

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Self Doubt: An honesty post

I'm sharing this because I think it's important for people to understand just how bad things can get when dealing with Autism. Things are really bad now. Gavin is pushing us to the brink of insanity. All he does is talk nonstop. He has no control over it now but I'm to the point I don't want to hear his voice. His movement issues have resurfaced once again and seem to be getting worse each day. The doc's are cut his meds back slowly already in response. However, he was on an extremely low dose of medication. This isn't good as it make it even more difficult to medicate him going forward. Emmett John is becoming more aggressive towards Elliott Richard and more destructive in general. He screams all the…

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I’m losing it

So in the span of the 30 minutes Emmett John has broken both my xbox 360 and Lizze's netbook. I'm so tired of not being able to have anything safe in this house. I know it sound petty and selfish but the 360 was all I had left. I have sold everything  else of any value in order to take care of my family. I'm not complaining about having to that because I wanted to. My family comes first but sometimes it's nice to have something like that to escape life with for a little while. Emmett John is driving me crazy because he is into EVERYTHING. There are very few places in this house he cannot get to. If you stop or correct him he just screams and screams…

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Gavin crisis update 8-18-2010

I'm not going to lie, Gavin is driving me crazy. He will not stop talking., even when I'm clearly not paying attention. He tells me every single thought that runs through his head. Most of this stuff doesn't make any sense to me. He's regressing into his imaginary world more and more. I haven't even been writing because I"m just to exhausted anymore. Things are pretty bad for us at the moment.

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Emmett John

Emmett John saw his Gastroenterologist yesterday and he now has an endoscopy scheduled for the 9th of September. We did not think that was going to happen. We thought they would toy with is reflux meds. The doc also went a step further and pulled EJ off his reflux meds which means he will be screaming all night. The sleepless nights began last night and it was a bad one. EJ is in so much pain when off the meds that Lizze and I are going to keep him on them and get a second opinion. This doc had a God complex and didn't really listen to us at all. Skipping everything else and going to something rather invasive doesn't sit well with us. We are going with our gut…

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Manic Monday

I have to try to keep a sense of humor about everything or I'll completely lose my mind. That said, Gavin is manic. He can't stand still of even stop talking. He is talking so fast you can't follow what he is saying and on top of that he is jumping from topic to topic randomly. I have actually gotten a headache from listening all day. I feel bad but I just can't take it right now. We will finally be getting a break because my mom and sister are taking the 2 youngest to the zoo for the day. I don't think it will end up being much of a break. We talked to the nurse in the psych unit today while at the hospital for Emmett John and…

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