Gavin is escalating in the self-injury department. He had a really bad meltdown this afternoon and hit himself in the head over and over again. He also bit his own leg almost to the point of it bleeding. I told him that if this continues we will have no choice but to send him back to Akron. We have far to much going on to play games with whether or not he's doing this for attention. We will just assume that he has no control and get him help for the behavior. We have little choice as Elliott and Emmett both have picked up on the behavior. They both hit themselves when they get upset. We cannot allow this to continue. So we have drawn the line in the sand. If the behavior continues…

Here is the closest ting we will have to family picture for awhile......we needed something to send to school...It took a total of 15 tries before we got this one........

So Lizze is is out with her sister. Elliott was still awake when she left. He was having a hard time sleeping. I had given him a little snack and filled his water bottle and got him back upstairs. I put on Cloudy with a chance of meatballs and was tucking him in. He was all relaxed and closing his eyes. I leaned over to give him a kiss and next thing I know his entire bed frame collapses and mattress crashes to the floor. Guess who's not sleeping now, that's right, Elliott. It gets better I'm trying to clean up all the little splinters of his bed frame off the floor while reassuring Elliott everything is ok when Emmett starts screaming. I'm bouncing back and forth between 2 kids…

i am so overwhelmed right now I feel like I'm going to vomit. I just feel like I am coming apart at the seams and barely holding it together. Today has not been a good day at all. Bad news after bad news just keeps coming our way. I just can't take it anymore. I want to scream and run away. So we heard from one of Emmett's doctors today. We know now that Emmett has severe type 2 allergy to milk. I guess they said the milk binds to his cell membranes or something that's not a good thing. He also has a type 1 allergy to egg as well. Basically he has to go on a vegan diet except he can eat meat.  Milk and egg is in…

Gavin is retreating into his imagination again. I sent him to brush his teeth this morning. He was in there for 20 minutes. I didn't realize at first cause I was getting Elliott ready. We called for Gavin and he was lost in his "imaginary" world. He was talking to his "friends" for the 20 minutes he was in there. He seems to be retreating to these imaginary places more often now. This is usually a sign that a psychotic break. Hopefully not this time but in the past that how it went down. The big concern this time around is that we have NO medication options. Just kill me now because this is not going to be fun and right before Christmas.

It looks like the entire air intake needs replaced now. Can you say $1000.00.......I know officially HATE today...

Kids are asleep. Elliott woke up and came downstairs for a bit to snuggle and fall back asleep. Lizze and I were watching The Mummy and Emmett woke up do we are just going to call it a night. I hope tomorrow is a better day then today was. I hope Gavin has a good day and Elliott continues tovhave good days. I hope Emmett slows down a bit and Lizze doesn't hurt as much.

Today has just been a bad day. Everyone sees to be on edge. As Christmas gets closer everyone gets more and more anxious. I can't get anyone to listen or follow basic direction. If I had any hair left I would be riping it out. We need a break in the worst way. We need a chance to decompress and unwind. Honestly, we haven't had a night without the kids (with the exception of Lizze having surgery eariler this year) and that really wasn't a break. We were at the hospital by like 5am and the night was a rough one. Lizze and I are at our wits end. There really is no way to discribe all the ways I am exhausted. This week alone we have been to Akron…