I don't think it's a secret that I'm struggling with everything. I know that I don't always look that good. I know I make lots of mistakes and I am far from perfect. I decided when started this blog that I would be honest even at the risk of looking bad. I could tell you that this is all a walk in the park and I'm taking it in stride. I could say I not frustrated and overwhelmed. I could pretend that I stronger then I really am and play the hero. The problem with that is it's not even close to the truth. The truth is I'm buried. I'm in excruciating pain all the time again. The truth is that I'm overwhelmed and frustrated beyond what my words can…

Emmett and I had to go out to Walmart and get socks for everyone. Elliott needed shoes and everyone else needed socks. Lizzie also needed a winter coat. Emmett and I were out for most of the morning and got home a little before noon. This had to wake up to taken her meds and eat something. She was up for about 20 minutes and then back to bed. Emmett and I then had to pick up my dad from the oral surgeon. We hung out at my parents again till we had to pick up the boys from school.... Posted from WordPress for Android

Got everyone up and dressed and out the door, basically on time. Emmett was having one of his many "I don't want to wear clothes today" kind of morning. He really was having a rough morning. Gavin got up and dressed. He needed constantly reminded but no major problems. Elliott had a few issues but we managed. Lizzie went to bed by 10pm last night and was up around 7:15 am. She took her meds refused to eat and went right back to bed. Got the boys to school and stopped by my parents house with Emmett (prior to our errands) just to get aways for a bit. My dad was having a tooth pulled and we wanted to wish him luck. Posted from WordPress for Android

I got up at 6:30am with Mr. Emmett John. Everyone else soon followed. I got Lizze up to to takeb her meds. I was hoping she'd eat something and move around a bit but she just went back to bed. Everyone is basically dressed and ready to go. Elliott and Emmett are already at each others throats. I have a bunch of running around to do today. I need also call the doctor and see what they want to do about Lizzie's lack of activity and her history of blood clotts. I also have to follow up on her surgery and convince insurance to cover it. We got up early this morning so I had a minute to post and get my day off to a good start. Thanks again…

Today has been very trying for me... I searched for hours for pills that were never missing (see the previous post) in the first place.  Lizze slept for about 20hrs today.  To be honest I am getting concerned because she has a history of blood clotts and with her lack of activity now, I'm getting a bit worried. Emmett has been a holy terror all day long. You can see in the picture just challenging he is. He did that several times today and it only takes him a minutes to destroy it again after I fixed it all up. School starts again in the morning and that will be lost of fun. Things I managed to do today: Laundry Dishes Gutted and cleaned the kitchen (looking for phantom pills)…

I got Lizze up this morning to take her meds. They have fully kicked in now as she is very sedated. She went to get the pill container down and the lid popped off and dozens of pills went every where in the kitchen. The pill organizer is kind of a bad design. I'll have to do something about that at a later time. I have spent the past 1.5 hours trying to locate the last 4 pills and  can't find them. They are huge and easy to see. I have pulled the kitchen completely apart and they are not there. My guess is that maybe Lizze counted wrong and we did find all of them. I can't take any chances right now with Emmett/Gavin who put's EVERYTHING in there…

Well I made it through the 1st day of Lizze on her new meds. Lizze slept about 18 hours today. I woke her in the morning to eat and take her meds. Then at lunch and dinner to eat and take her meds also. The kids were a handful today. Gavin was driving me nuts but was also very helpful at the sam time. Emmett spent all day screaming and hitting. Elliott spen most of the day whining and crying (cause either Emmett hit him or he didn't get his way). I managed to make dinner and do some dishes. That was about the extent of what I accomplished. I need to do a ton of laundry in the morning if I can. The kids will need clothes for school…

Today's brief topic is on Autism and Anxiety. I want people to understand how even the simplest things  (most take for granted) are significantly more complicated for families like mine raising Autistic children. [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzOALyQ25ao[/youtube] Pampers actually refused to help us out. We wanted to simply order and pay for just one kind of diaper. We are going through 80 -100 diapers every week or so because Emmett destroys the non Grover diapers. He typically won't wear clothes so we can't hide the diaper from him. He really does panic and have extreme anxiety when we put a different diaper I know it sounds weird but it just how he responds. It pretty typical for Autistic kids to react this way to things that change... [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X45ECP5iRcE[/youtube]