My back hurts so badly I'm getting sick to my stomach and my head is pounding... We were late this morning and Emmett decided today he as not going to wear clothes. This is only the 4th or 5th day and I'm already feeling defeated.... Posted from WordPress for Android

Tomorrow begins the busy days... Here's the run down: Wake Lizze up for meds 7am Elliott to school 7:30am Gavin school 8am Errands 9am-11am Wake Lizze up for meds 11:30am Emmett to school 12:00pm Lizze to sleep disorder doctor 1pm Lizze home and back to bed 2pm Elliott picked up from school 2:15pm Emmett picked up from school 2:30pm Gavin picked up from school 3pm Make dinner Get Lizzie up to take meds Elliott to therapy 6 pm Kids to bed 7:30pm Pretty simple right? I figured it out and on Tues and Thurs I will be driving over 100 miles simply taking the kids to and picking them up from school. I have to call in the morning to schedule Emmett's speech, other and pt at Akron Kid's. That…

Lizzie slept about 20 hours today. The back injury that ended my fire fighting career has reared its ugly and very painful head again. I was thinking about it today and realized something. For the last 10 years I have been dealing with the constant back pain everyone always teased me cause I pace constantly. I always thought it nervous energy or something. But today I realized it was my body trying to fix itself. In the past 10 years I have not had a minute pain free. Then about 7 months ago I started walking and got up to 30 miles a week. I was pain free for the first time is 10 years. Then things got worse here and I haven't bee able to walk in almost 3…

I don't think it's a secret that I'm struggling with everything. I know that I don't always look that good. I know I make lots of mistakes and I am far from perfect. I decided when started this blog that I would be honest even at the risk of looking bad. I could tell you that this is all a walk in the park and I'm taking it in stride. I could say I not frustrated and overwhelmed. I could pretend that I stronger then I really am and play the hero. The problem with that is it's not even close to the truth. The truth is I'm buried. I'm in excruciating pain all the time again. The truth is that I'm overwhelmed and frustrated beyond what my words can…

Emmett and I had to go out to Walmart and get socks for everyone. Elliott needed shoes and everyone else needed socks. Lizzie also needed a winter coat. Emmett and I were out for most of the morning and got home a little before noon. This had to wake up to taken her meds and eat something. She was up for about 20 minutes and then back to bed. Emmett and I then had to pick up my dad from the oral surgeon. We hung out at my parents again till we had to pick up the boys from school.... Posted from WordPress for Android

Got everyone up and dressed and out the door, basically on time. Emmett was having one of his many "I don't want to wear clothes today" kind of morning. He really was having a rough morning. Gavin got up and dressed. He needed constantly reminded but no major problems. Elliott had a few issues but we managed. Lizzie went to bed by 10pm last night and was up around 7:15 am. She took her meds refused to eat and went right back to bed. Got the boys to school and stopped by my parents house with Emmett (prior to our errands) just to get aways for a bit. My dad was having a tooth pulled and we wanted to wish him luck. Posted from WordPress for Android

I got up at 6:30am with Mr. Emmett John. Everyone else soon followed. I got Lizze up to to takeb her meds. I was hoping she'd eat something and move around a bit but she just went back to bed. Everyone is basically dressed and ready to go. Elliott and Emmett are already at each others throats. I have a bunch of running around to do today. I need also call the doctor and see what they want to do about Lizzie's lack of activity and her history of blood clotts. I also have to follow up on her surgery and convince insurance to cover it. We got up early this morning so I had a minute to post and get my day off to a good start. Thanks again…

Today has been very trying for me... I searched for hours for pills that were never missing (see the previous post) in the first place.  Lizze slept for about 20hrs today.  To be honest I am getting concerned because she has a history of blood clotts and with her lack of activity now, I'm getting a bit worried. Emmett has been a holy terror all day long. You can see in the picture just challenging he is. He did that several times today and it only takes him a minutes to destroy it again after I fixed it all up. School starts again in the morning and that will be lost of fun. Things I managed to do today: Laundry Dishes Gutted and cleaned the kitchen (looking for phantom pills)…