One of the things we struggle with is getting the kids to eat healthier. They each have texture and or color issues with food. I have found that allowing them to make a smoothie seems to "override" some of the sensory issues. I can sneak all kinds of veggies in there. Anyone else have success with this???

We are calling Dr. R first thing in the morning. Gavin is just "not right". Something is just off with him right now, more so then usual. Maybe he's just adjusting to the meds (we haven't seen him adjust to meds in a really long time). He's at the point of literally walking into walls. We can barely understand him and his memory is shot. Maybe it's just the med change (increase) but that was a few days ago and this just started.  I can't see a way out of this without a hospital stay. The movements are becoming an issue again also. I can say that I quite literally HATE these situations. There is no clear path to take. Any choice we make will have a very high cost…

I thought it might be helpful for me to get a few things off my chest. I carry around enough stress on a daily basis that I don't need to burden myself with more then I have to. I also want everyone to see what happens to many special needs families like mine. Maybe you can learn something from me and use it to avoid this from happening to you. Please note I have a very narrow focus for this post. This is not directed at my parents or in-laws. Confessions of a special needs parent: I'm angry, hurt, resentful and just plain PISSED OFF... I'm the oldest of 6 kids.and my confession is that I feel we have been abandoned by them.  I have been there for EVERY SINGLE…

Gavin is continuing to struggle even after the final adjustment to his anti-psychotics. He is starting to see things during the day and not just at night. Well, at least he's telling us about it now.  He is falling up the stairs and dropping things more frequently. His speech is becoming more difficult to understand as well. I don't see a way we can avoid a hospital stay at this point. We can't "not" send him because we feel bad doing it. He has a right to a quality of life much higher then the one he's currently experiencing. As his parents we have to make the choice to set aside our personal needs and wants in order to ensure this happens. The guilt will be there reguardless and we're…

Today has been exhausting on a number of levels. I drove over 200 miles today and my back is killing me.. We had to drive about 85 miles (one way) to a meeting this morning as part of the study that Emmett is involved in called Project Bridge. Today was our first "group" meeting. Basically, we meet with a few other families and interventionist (so to speak) and share our experience and learn new techniques to help better relate, communicate and even integrate into our Autistic children's world. The families we met today were really nice.  Honestly, it was slightly uncomfortable for me, not because of anyone there but because we so rarely come into personal contact with other families similar to ourselves. I really enjoyed hearing little snippets of…

Of course I wouldn't really quit. The truth is, sometimes I just get so completely overwhelmed that I wish I could. I feel helpless, hopeless and Lost and Tired. It feels like there isn't any further down I could sink but I know I will eventually sink further. It's difficult to articulate exact what reaching that point feels like. I'll just say that it sucks..... You also have to understand how bad of a day yesterday was. We drove 100 miles just taking the boys to and from school. We were trying to get ready for Emmett's sleep which we ended up rescheduling. The van was having major issues on the freeway the other day and I knew I needed to get that fixed. Then Lizze informs me that her…

Lizze's main incision is infected again. This time it's much worse. I f*cking quit...

As special needs parent I have to (along with my wife) make some really tough decisions. Honestly, we have very "easy" decisions to make anymore.  Right now we have a problem and we are trying to figure out a way around it. Emmett is scheduled for the sleep study tonight form 8pm-5am Friday morning. We then will have to leave the hospital, kill time for about 3 hours and then be in Cleveland for more Emmett related therapies. Akron is about 25 minutes form my house and Cleveland is about 1.5 hours from my house. We will be doing all of thins on ANOTHER night of no sleep. The other issue is I think the sleep study will be a waste of time. Not because I don't want to spend…