Gavin was hallucinating most of the night again. He real tired this morning so he's going to be fun today. Elliott was to hot last night. I was 80F yesterday and we can't open our windows for safety reasons. Emmett spiked fever last night as well. He was restless all night. Lizze is in so much pain that she can't sleep even though she exhausted. I have a busy week ahead of house work and laundry. I need to snake a few clogged drains and start looking for agencies to help with obtaining new window or portable air conditioners. I know of some but they are more for the elderly. Maybe we could be an exception ;) Have a great Monday and remember to help spread Autism Awareness. -lost and…

We have come to accept and embrace Autism in our lives. Life is always difficult and there are days (many to be honest) where I wonder why God picked me for this job. Then there are the days where maybe Emmett learns a word or Gavin goes a whole day without a meltdown. Those are the good ones. We are now facing another challenge that I don't remember if I've spoken about before. It appears as though Elliott might be dealing with ADHD as well. He is ALL over the place. This started a some months ago. I had thought it was or maybe just hoped that it was anxiety. Man, I just don't know. The only thing that holds his attention (at least at home) is his DS. He…

Gavin has been struggling more and more lately. The other day we took the kids to the park. Gavin was out of control. He pushed Emmett out of the way while trying to get to the slide. Emmett hit his head on the metal bars as a result. I made him sit off to the side for a while.  I explained to him that he MUST pay attention to the people around him. I let him come back and play.  Not 5 minutes later Emmett is walking under the monkey bars. Gavin decides he going to swing across them but doesn't pay attention to the fact that Emmett is in the way and was standing there before Gavin decided to do this. Gavin swung his feet out and I had…

Being a mother is a sacred thing. Being a special needs mother is in a class all their own. No matter how much my wife is suffering just never gives up trying to help. Even is it's just the little things. She does what she can....even when it hurts. I shot this while I was playing COD Black Ops on the xbox360. That's what the gun fire is in the back ground. I looked over and saw Lizze sitting there with Emmett teaching him signs and colors. Today was a really bad day for her pain wise and so I was just amazed watching her work with him. I know it hurt for her to do this but she did it anyway. Lizze I love you. [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bvbbWdtZgRo[/youtube]

Here is the banner that my friend Johnny Bravo from ppcgeeks.com helped me to design. He did a great job with this banner and I simply made a few changes to the text. Autism Awareness has taken root in the PPCGeeks and xda-developers communities. Many people are showing support by using this banner in their signature. Others have created their own. There are several threads now dedicated to Autism Awareness and I think that's awesome. This is proof that Autism Awareness can work in even the most unlikely of places. Thanks everyone for the support.... Here is the one associated with my ROM. Here is an unbranded version as well.

I thought I would take a pic of some Elliott's artwork from the walls of his class room. He is so proud of these and I'm proud of him...    

I have reached a point where I feel it may be time to re-evaluate a lot of things. Raising 3 special needs kids and trying to care for my wife is like 4 full time jobs. It literally requires every ounce of everything I have. If I had an unlimited supply of "everything" then it wouldn't be a problem. You may have guessed that I don't and so it is....a problem. I'm stretched WAY to thin and it's like I can feel the fibers that make me who I am beginning to snap under the constant, ever increasing tension. I need to re-evaluated my priorities. When you have to quit your job to stay at home and take care of your family there are sacrifices you have to make. You…