Elliott awoke,  basically in a panic.  He seemed like he was in pain but said he wasn't.  He was pretty incoherent,  so I take what he said with a grain of salt. I carried him downstairs to the couch to see if that would help.  He's all curled up and back to sleep now.  I wish I knew what was going on with him.  He's an emotional wreck darn near all the time.  He's having trouble listening at school and at home.  He is extremely anxious and very easily worried.  It feels like he is going down hill and I don't know how to help him. My heart is breaking watching him struggle.  Something has to give.  Something has to change.  I need to make things better for my family.…

It's been 2 days since the drive-by shooting a few doors down.  While we were not the recipients of the 8 gunshots,  it spilled into our lives when they tried to run me down and throw the loaded hand guns out the window in front of my house. We don't feel safe here.  Lizze is really struggling with this as she suffers from PTSD and this has caused her a great deal of anxiety.  While the boys don't know what happened,  the do know that something did. Our boys have a very symbiotic relationship with us,  meaning they ebb and flow with Lizze and I.  They don't need to know that something really bad happened, because they can feel that Lizze and I are nervous. I'm still pretty jumping,  especially…

Once again,  we are off to have Gavin bloodwork done for this week.  We go right from school and typically,  Gavin does very well. This is a necessity because of the medication he is on.  It isn't fun but the alternative in simply not acceptable.  Thankfully,  we don't have to battle with him anymore over bloodwork. - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version of auto-correct. So please forgive the spelling ;-) Please Vote for Lost and Tired (just click the link) and help me spread Autism Awareness. Everyone can Vote once a day :)

Remember, I said I try to find humor in everything? Well this was one of those times. Elliott and Emmett are at each others throats constantly. Elliott is extremely anxious and Emmett can be very aggressive. Elliott's anxiety is likely due to Aspergers and just the situation in general. Emmett is aggressive because he struggles with speech and expressing what he needs or wants. Sometimes, there appears to be no rhyme or reason for Elliott's anxiety and Emmett's aggression. I don't even know what got this little fued started but they were both pushing each others buttons. This is a very common occurrence in the Lost and Tired house. Sometimes we just don't have the energy to intervene. We try to allow them to sort things out, so long as…

These pictures are from yesterday's OT session. Emmett had a blast,  as usual.  If you're wondering why he wearing his winter coat while in the swing,  here's why.  We are having a very difficult time getting Emmett dressed.  He just doesn't tolerate clothes very well right now.  With winter quickly approaching,  we thought it would be good to practice with a winter coat.  This way he can get used to it before he really needs to wear it. His OT suggested that he bringing with him to therapy and they will incorporate that into his sessions.  So far so good.  He wore it for a bit while we were there. Hopefully,  he will be able to tolerate the coat when it really matters,  or else this winter is going to…

We had a very traumatic evening last night and a very busy day today.  Emmett was very upset after seeing what he saw last night. Lizze and I wanted to provide a distraction for him today.  So after OT,  we took him McDonalds and got him lunch and let him play on the indoor play ground.  He had a blast. To be completely honest, Lizze and I needed the distraction as well.  I find myself jumping at every car that drives by and Lizze was already dealing with PTSD before last night,  so you can imagine how she's doing.  It felt amazing to spend the day with Emmett today. I really needed to get away...  Here are some random pics of our playground adventures. - Lost and Tired Posted by…

I wanted to thank you all for the outpouring of support since last nights events (I can't stop shaking) . I intend to reply to every comment and the mountain of email as well. Right now, I just in one of those, life flashed before your eyes, kinda of places. I found out this morning,  as Lizze and I were talking,  that she was not in the van when this happened.  She had gotten out of the van right after I did. When I made the decisions I did last night,  they were split second decisions based on the fact that I thought Lizze was still in the car.  Learning that she was in harms way as well makes this so much more difficult to deal with. I would also…