I thought I would post this in honor of the 3 year anniversary of the day I adopted Gavin.   This is the actual letter I wrote to the judge about why I wanted to adopt Gavin.   I often return to this letter to help me put things into perspective......... I was finally able to adopt Gavin on October 22, 2008 after fighting for 10 years to protect him from his abusive biological father and paternal grandmother.  I love you Gavin :-) Why do I want to adopt Gavin? I have been asked the question, Why do I want to adopt Gavin? This should be very simple to answer but it’s not.  There is so much going on in our lives that I don’t really know how to answer this question…

Yesterday was beyond exhausting.  Gavin was in very,  very,  rare form.  I haven't seen him this bad in a very long time.  Between all the screaming and having to restrain him while they took blood,  it's all I can do to keep my eyes open. Gavin and Elliott spent the night at my parents house,  which was awesome.  However,  Emmett came home last night so we never actually got a break.  He's been up since 5am this morning.  Lizze most likely won't be out of bed for many hours,  if at all.  She's in really bad shape. I just want everything so slow down a bit today because I'm moving in slow motion today. - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to…

Long story short, because it's 2am.  The hospital ruled out any life threats but have no idea what is going on with him. Gavin's doing better now and actually spending the night at my parents,  along with Elliott.  I'll have more details later on?  For now I need to get to sleep. Thank you all so much for your thoughts and prayers.  I truly appreciate it.  :-) Good night..... - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version of auto-correct. So please forgive the spelling ;-) Please Vote for Lost and Tired (just click the link) and help me spread Autism Awareness. Everyone can…

Lizze and I haven't eaten today.  The morning was just to crazy.  We are in the room with Gavin right now and I think this is going to be a very long day. On the plus side,  I did find 3 cough drops in my jacket pocket.  They are from last winter but weren't even sticky :-) Lizze didn't want any so more for me :-P Honestly,  they don't really make a difference.  I'm so freaking hungry right now.  I'm only typing this because I'm trying to kill time and block out the obnoxious cartoon on the TV right now.  For the record, it's not working.  - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the…

They needed to draw blood.  They offered to do it via finger pricking instead of the usual blood draw.  WOW.  Absolute nightmare and for Gavin,  that's saying something.  That's all I can say.  Complete disaster.  Gavin screamed and screamed.  He had to be poked a second time because he was fighting so hard the first of clotted.  Something is very clearly wrong.  Gavin was completely disconnected and using made up words. I once again had to look like a monster because I was very abrupt with him as that's the only way to de-escalate him.  It's not easy to do, but after a while I have just learned it's one of those things that I just have to do. I haven't gotten to the point that I don't care how…

Saw the doctor and he did a quick evaluation.  I'm not sure what they are going to do but I hope they at least check his blood sugar.  They should also run a full blood panel. Then they wanted a urine sample.  That was loads of fun.  He was struggling to stand up without being really wobbly.  I never got to eat this morning before this all went down.  So I'll take a nice lunch and a huge side of freakin' answers.  - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version of auto-correct. So please forgive the spelling ;-) Please Vote for Lost and…

We are in the room now and waiting to see the doctor.  Somethings definitely...off with Gavin.  Right now he's in the hospital bed,  reading his book but something is just not right.  Do you ever experience this type of thing?  You know somethings wrong but don't know quite what it is.  That's what it's like at the moment.  He's acting......funny and for Gavin that's saying something.  This is almost like his blood sugar is low,  although that's never been a problem before.  The CBC from last night's blood work was fine,  but they are only checking white blood cell counts. Hopefully we can get to the bottom of this.  If it's not to much to ask,  I would love to walk away with actual answers this time and not more…

Gavin is home and somethings wrong.  We are locating a place to take Emmett John and then we are off to Akron Children's Hospital.  Gavin has an altered mental status and can't seem to maintain his balance very well.  The school was pretty freaked out and that is very concerning.  Somethings just not right.  I don't know how serious this is but something just isn't right.  - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version of auto-correct. So please forgive the spelling ;-) Please Vote for Lost and Tired (just click the link) and help me spread Autism Awareness. Everyone can Vote once a…