Read more about the article The next few days are gonna suck but it’s worth it
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The next few days are gonna suck but it’s worth it

I have a few minutes before I head out to get my second COVID booster. Elliott got off to work without a problem and I'm hoping that this round of side effects doesn't hit me too hard. Gavin is going to be scheduled for his as well but not today. Covid is getting bad again and the best weapon I have to keep my loved ones safe if the vaccine. I feel good about getting my forth dose and I'm not worried about it. I'll be fine after a few days and my schedule is pretty light this week, so it works out. I have a meeting this morning and should be able to crash after that if need be. My goal today is to make further progress on Gavin's…

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July 19, 2022
Read more about the article It’s time for some brutal honesty
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It’s time for some brutal honesty

Today was tough for me. Emmett was up all night after having a nightmare. I finally crashed around 4 am-ish and was up in time to get Elliott to work by 8 am. I've been really out of sorts today and very easily agitated. I managed to get all of my work done and the business had a pretty good day, if I'm being honest. That's definitely a plus. Despite the obvious positives today, I couldn't shake the conversation I had with Gavin last night. It was deeply upsetting to me, and I'm still feeling like a failure. I'm looking at his paperwork tonight and I'll get it filled out tomorrow. I just need to make some progress. Anyway, the purpose of this post is to answer a question that…

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July 18, 2022
Read more about the article We had a really bad night
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We had a really bad night

It's 3am and I'm still awake because the boys are struggling after a brief visit with their mom. Elliott managed to fall asleep, but Emmett had a nightmare, and refuses to go back to bed for fear it's going to happen again. Then of course, there's Gavin. Poor Gavin had a particularly bad night. He came home and immersed himself in video games. That's not unusual for him but tonight he became frustrated, punched his phone, and shattered the screen. He became so angry with himself and it just spiraled from there. He went from being upset about the same things his brothers were upset about some things that to raging about how angry he is was me for destroying his life. He actually used those words. In the almost…

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July 18, 2022
Read more about the article The gentle giant
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The gentle giant

It's been another long day for me but I'm doing okay. I didn't accomplish anything today but I'm not going to beat myself up. I took a long nap today, which was desperately needed, so there's that I suppose. A bit of selfcare. Yesterday, the boys and I drove to Toledo Ohio to pick up a dog that needed a new home. I've been thinking about doing this for a little while, but haven't. We miss Maggie tremendously and while we love Ruby, it's just not the same as having a big dog. I felt like it was time and while we can never replace Maggie, I do know what we were looking for. I was lucky enough to find it. We drove five hours, round trip, to bring this…

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July 16, 2022
Read more about the article I’ve discovered plant therapy and it’s amazing
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I’ve discovered plant therapy and it’s amazing

It's been a really long week but I have accomplished at least some of what I set out to accomplish. That's something. Yesterday, I sorta spent the day immersed in plant therapy. Emmett and I spent some time at Petitti Garden Center. It's one of the three dangerous stores for me to visit when I'm feeling depressed. It goes Best Buy, Petitti, and Home Depot. They're dangerous because I can always find something I need. All I needed was potting soil because I was potting my recently transplanted ferns. They started dying outside and I've been saving them one by one. I dig them up and plant them in a pot. All the potted ones are doing great, but I ran out of potting soil, Emmett also wanted a cactus.…

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July 16, 2022
Read more about the article I went to bed feeling like I was a decent Dad last night
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I went to bed feeling like I was a decent Dad last night

I'm really trying to push through all this shit today. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing okay and other times I feel like I'm broken. I've been really focused on work lately because I'm getting slammed, which is good but it's also painfully obvious that I'm a one man operation. My goal right now is continued growth and meeting the needs of the community. I've been going back and forth over the best ways to do that. After a good bit of thought, I've made the decision to add a second episode each week, and I know what you're thinking. Rob, why would you add more work for yourself when you're already spread too thin? Great question. The second episode is less than 10 minutes long and I'm answering listener…

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July 15, 2022
Read more about the article The truth is I’m really struggling right now
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The truth is I’m really struggling right now

It's been a minute since I've written anything. While this is the part where I usually apologize for that, I'm not going to do that anymore. The reason is because it ends up feeding this insane level of guilt that I feel for not writing and I need to stop that. The truth is that I'm struggling a bit right now. Honestly, I'm struggling more than a bit right now. I don't know why I try to downplay it. I want to try and explain what I'm experiencing, as it might help someone else out there feel a little less alone. I feel like I'm spread way too thin. The reality is that in some ways, I probably am, while in others, maybe not so much. I know that sounds…

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July 12, 2022
Read more about the article I asked my kids to take pictures while hiking and this is what I got
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I asked my kids to take pictures while hiking and this is what I got

I took the kids hiking tonight. It was our first hike of the summer and we kept it simple. Something that I enjoy doing is asking the kids to take pictures with their photos while we're exploring. Elliott and Emmett are very interested in photography and I'm trying to foster that a bit. Gavin has no interest but I'm encouraging him to step outside his comfort zone. Today was no exception. I asked the kids to please take four pictures while we were out, and send them to me. Here's what I got. Note, Emmett and Elliott like to edit their photos, and Gavin sent me two instead of four. Lol The reason I like doing this is because it's so interesting to see how they see their world. This…

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June 24, 2022