I want to close the day on a positive note. I'll talk about the rest later. The boys and I have an early day ahead of us. You may remember I mentioned last month that my birthday present this year was tickets to take the kids on a scenic train ride. We're super excited, as none of us have ever ridden a train before. It's like a stroller for big kids. 😂 We will be spending the day on the Cuyahoga Valley Scenic Railroad. Here's a brief video about what we're going to experience. https://youtu.be/qpWfKf3oGv8 It's about an hours drive from our house and we have to leave super early. My parents are coming with us and that's awesome as well. This will take most of the day from what…

The boys have mostly recovered from a very difficult morning. They were very quiet when they got home, which normally, I'd be throwing into the win column but they were quiet for the wrong reasons. Eventually, the quiet turned into screaming and yelling because Elliott and Emmett were at each other's throats. They just sorta turned on each other. We're now finishing up dinner and I'm taking everyone to the park. I feel like shit right now because this whole thing has me physically and emotionally exhausted. This is a lot to deal with, especially when I have my own emotional struggles I'm working through. That really doesn't matter because there's a greater good being served by pushing myself a little more than I'd like to tonight. These guys need…

Elliott had a rough time falling asleep last night and didn't pass out until after 1 AM. That's sorta setting the tone for him today but he's doing okay. Everyone's in a good mood and I'm feeling confident about the day. I think Elliott wants me to talk to his teachers about a couple concerns he has. After that, and assuming the rain stops, Gvlavin and I will go walking. While I'm not going as much or as far as I'd like, something is better than nothing.

It's been an interesting day in my house. Interesting isn't really good or bad, it's just interesting, maybe a little bit of both. I apologize in advance if this doesn't make a great deal of sense. I'm exhausted and I keep falling sleep. I'm really proud of all three of the kids because they are making progress in their own way. Elliott and Emmett are working through their emotional distress and finding it a bit easier to make it through the school day. I know it's not easy for them but they're doing great and I'm hoping it continues to get easier and easier. Elliott is also opening up and talking to me about his feelings. That's so fucking awesome. I know I can't fix anything or most things for…