The only person who slept last night was Gavin and even he woke up a few times due to not feeling well. Elliott didn't fall asleep until 6:30 AM and Emmett was up on and off throughout the night, which kept me awake for most of the night as well. Neither of the boys are feeling good and for the first time this school year, it doesn't appear to be emotional in nature. +1 for progress. I'm absolutely exhausted and I can barely keep my eyes open. Unfortunately, all of this has thrown a wrench into the days plans. Walking won't happen, Gavin's appointment won't happen, his blood work won't happen and neither will therapy for me. I'm having such a hard time even writing this because my eyes keep…

I've got an insanely busy week ahead of me, full of responsibility. There's at least one interview this week for a future pod, but there will probably end up being more. That's not a bad thing, it's just a great deal of work. I haven't finalized my schedule yet. Gavin sees his psychiatrist tomorrow for a meds check. Shouldn't be anything major but it will take up most of the morning and that will mostly consist of waiting to be seen. It will also require me to sacrifice walking. I'm not happy about that but it is what it is. I also have to get Gavin in for his blood work as well, and then battle to get his Clozapine refill done on time. I have to hit the post…

The kids haven't quite been gone a day and I'm already struggling a bit. This probably doesn't make any sense but there are times that I really need a break but when I get the break, I find myself wishing the kids were home. I'm so used to not being alone or having any time to myself, that I don't like it when I get it. It's important that I find a way to take advantage of the downtime and get things done that need to be done or simply do nothing at all. I'm pretty much always doing something and sometimes it's okay to do absolutely nothing. If I'm being honest, I do okay on most days since my wife has left. I'm very focused on my kids and…

It's been a really, really long day and I'm so ready to do to sleep. I wanted to share some of today's events first. I've got a few pictures to help illustrate today's journey. Let's start off with the car. I spent about 3 hours today, washing, waxing and detailing the entire car. It was a lot of work and my whole body hurts. I tried to get the kids to help but they weren't having it today. I'm pushing myself and trying to keep up with it because it's got to last for at least the next 5 years. It also adds a bit of normalcy to my life. She definitely cleans up nice, doesn't she.. ☺ My other claim to fame today was finishing up Emmett's Halloween costume…