Last night I was filtering throu my Dropbox to find pictures for my Instagram. I wasn't really thinking I guess because I found pictures that I just don't know what to do with anymore. The pictures in question are of my wife and I before she left.  I wouldn't get rid of the pictures of her and the kids because the boys might want to see them someday.     The pictures taken of just my wife and I are really painful to see. When I see them, everything that has happened just sorta washes away and I wish I could be in that moment once again.  I don't know what to do with these memories frozen in time.. Keeping them seems pointless because they'll never happen again but throwing them…

I wasn't sure if I was going to touch on this part of my life with this new blog but I'm not really sure how I couldn't.  Everyone has a moment in their life that changes the the course of everything going forward. That moment for me, occurred on the night of October 14, 2014. That's the night that my wife left and never returned.  I thought that we were the exception to the rule.  It was her second marriage and we were a blended family with special needs children. I suppose the cards were stacked against us but I never saw this coming and there are still times I wake up in the middle of the night thinking it was just a bad dream.     I know guys who've…

Update: This is posting late because it's been a very difficult day and I didn't get around to posting it after dinner.    We've been trying to put a therapy session together for them with their Mom but it just hasn't come together yet.  The reason for this type of session is because the therapist and I want to facilitate a discussion between the boys and their Mom.     Since she left last year, she only sees them for about 48 hours a month, give or take. The reason are complicated but not something I have any control over.  The visitations haven't been going so well for everyone, in particular Elliott and more recently Emmett.  Emmett's getting tummy aches and Elliott simply doesn't want to have contact with his Mom…