We've learned over the many years of being Autism and Special Needs parents, that we have to be flexible in order to survive.

The truth is, I'm exhausted, overwhelmed, worried, stressed out, broke and fearful of what tomorrow will bring but I'm also incredibly proud of everyone

It's been a minute since I've written anything publicly. I spent some time today writing but it was painful and unfortunately, necessary. I'm hoping to move forward now and put some of this recent shit in the rear view. All I can do is try. Life simply sucks sometimes, no matter now hard you try to see the positive. Life can suck even when there's plenty of positive things to celebrate as well. I've been struggling a great deal recently and if I'm ever able to explain in more detail, I will. For now, I'll simply say things have been difficult and this doesn't have anything to do with Lizze or the kids. This is all stuff from my childhood. I find it very challenging to focus on the things…

Today's already not going as planned. I was supposed to get the boys to school, go walking and then take Gavin to Akron Children's Hospital. Unfortunately, things fell apart rather quickly this morning. Elliott woke up not feeling well. He's got a runny nose, sore throat and now a fever. It appears as though he's spiking a fever because he went from 99°F to almost 101°F in a span of a few maybe 15 minutes. This is most likely nothing but because of the Whooping Cough thing at school, they're tracking the kids with fevers I guess. That makes sense actually. Emmett was the one directly exposed and treated with antibiotics. He remains a-symptomatic and so does everyone else in the class, from what I understand. Anyway, as I said,…

This week is just not going as planned. Truthfully, none of this was planned and how could it be? What I'm referring to is our plans to deal with the unplanned events of this week.. Our goal has been to get the kids back to school but they're missing their second day today. No one is in a very good place and everyone is on emotional overload, with the only exception being Gavin. Frankly, I'm glad he's not going through what the rest of us are. Every single day of is life is hard for him and if even can escape things from time to time because he just doesn't process things like grief, more power to him. He doesn't need anymore challenges in his life. Lizze and I are…