Gavin's bloodwork went we this morning, not that it ever doesn't anymore. We went to the lab after dropping the boys off at school today because Gavin was due for his Clozapine refill and that can't happen without current bloodwork.  As usual, I dropped him off at the front door and he signed himself in. I waited in the car while he did what he had to do.  I don't worry too much about him being in there alone because everyone knows Gavin and looks after him while he's there. Besides, he would have to come through one of two doors to leave and I could see both.   When he came out, he explained that everything went great and then we discussed the suckered he picked out for himself,…

I'm feeling a great deal of mixed emotions tonight as I write this entry. Lizze and I finally sat down today and began the application process to have Gavin get a wish granted by the Make-A-Wish Foundation.  One of Gavin's specialists have been encouraging me to do this but I hadn't until today.  During the separation, things were really hard and I was struggling to keep the boys above water. When Lizze moved back home, we began putting our lives back together and I still hadn't applied.  The truth is that I was struggling with the idea of this whole thing because for Gavin to qualify, it means that things are pretty bad for him. It forces me to face his mortality and that's something I really struggle with.  Below…

I'm going to be very honest. Gavin is driving me absolutely crazy today. It's not his fault but his behaviors are just getting under my skin today. There're a couple of newer things that seem to be problematic for him and they do seem to be of a more frustrating nature for me personally. Of course, we have the typical incessant talking, bragging about his superhuman abilities and how he's saved the universe again. These things take a toll on me after awhile, especially when I'm already stressed out a million other things. There are some newer things that he's doing or rather not doing that are adding to the mix. His short term memory is seemingly nonexistent anymore. Short term memory has never really been his strong suit but it's never been…