The boys are off to school and I have officially confirmed that the van hasn't been stolen.  I'm going on about 45 minutes of sleep right now and I have a few phone calls to make before I know what my options are or my chances are to fix this situation.  My eyes and heart are heavy this morning but I'm not going to let that keep me from being as positive as possible.  I'm going to fix this and I won't stop until I do. :-) This site is managed almost exclusively from my Samsung Galaxy Note 3. Please forgive any typos as auto-correct HATES me. ;-) Follow @Lost_and_Tired "Like" me on Facebook Visit the My Autism Help Forums To reach me via email, please Contact Me

In the last two years, he's lost his immune system, been diagnosed with epilepsy and developed severe Autonomic Dysfunction. Now he's losing weight and becoming increasingly more medically fragile. This weight thing has me pretty freaked out because even though his caloric intake has increased this year, he's still losing weight.

Please know going into this post that I blame only myself for what I'm about to share. I'm not proud of this but it's a pretty big deal and there's no way to deny the impact this is going to have on my family.

The demands on me from the kids alone, is all too often, more than I can handle. I don't have enough for the kids, let alone my wife and her ever increasing needs.

My kids are absolutely awesome. I love them unconditionally and would die for any of them in a heartbeat. That being said, my kids can do some weird shit.

I thought I had hit a home run with dinner tonight and I think on most nights it would have been a grandslam. However, it didn't quite work out as planned.

It's 3am and Emmett just finished having a massive meltdown, that woken the entire house (except Gavin).

I haven't written much since yesterday because it's been pretty crazy over here. Lizze has been in bed most of the day because she's really not feeling well and yesterday took a lot out of her.