I'm not really sure how this trip to Cleveland is going to go. Gavin's bladder issues have ramped up since increasing his Clozapine. The really tough part is that he's not actually having to go to the bathroom most of the time. It's just the overwhelming urge.  He's struggling with this and there really isn't anything we can do provide him with relief.  If I leave early, in order to accommodate frequent bathroom breaks, than we'll be there too early and the boys will have to wait much longer to be done. If I leave at the normal time and we have numerous bathroom breaks along the way, we'll end up being late.  While it's not the end of the world either way, it does stress out the kids and…

Today was one of those days where I was completely drained at the onset. Gavin's mission debriefing really took a great deal more out of me last night than I originally thought.  After getting the boys to school, I crashed for a little while. I was even too tired to get my walk in this morning.  I feel a little better now but Lizze is leaving for class which means Gavin has to come with me to pick up the boys. He's already trying to fill me in on a nightmare that Twilight Sparkle had last night or something like that anyway.  It feels like there's no escape from this... I know that sounds terrible but it's the reality of how I'm feeling right now. Gavin has asked me to…

I'm going to bed tonight with mindset that when I wake up, the slate will be wiped clean. I'm going into the new day with a sense of I can totally do this.  It doesn't matter how positive a person is because when faced with the unending challenges associated with being an Autism parent, it can become difficult to remain positive.  That said, being difficult and being impossible are two very different things. While it may be difficult to focus on the positive, it's certainly not impossible. I feel pretty comfortable saying that because we have more than our fair share of challenge, heartache and pain.  I find that there's always something worth celebrating, at least on most days.  I'm really trying to focus on the positive and as a…