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Helping my kids remain open to positive change and willing to embrace it, even after they’ve been hurt

It's been an incredibly emotional evening, especially for the kids. I had to make a difficult decision tonight, but it was the right one. I'm completely physically, and emotionally exhausted now. The kids are very upset but I'm working to help them remain open to positive change, and embrace it, even after they've been hurt. The boys are doing okay at this point. Emmett's currently in his own bed, which is amazing, and with any luck, he will remain there. Gavin's already asleep and Elliott won't be too far behind. As I was writing this, Emmett popped his head in to inform me that he wants to do in-person learning again in the morning, which is awesome. Although, I just remembered that his clothes are still in the washer. I'll…

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May 19, 2021

Emmett John / My thoughts

Emmett kicked ass today!

Today is a pretty big day for the kids. They have a pretty important therapy session tonight and that will help to chart our path forward. I'm going to try and touch base with the therapist before the boys meet with her tonight because I have some thoughts that I don't want to bring up in front of the kids. Getting through tonight is the bulk of the weight I'm carrying today. I can't wait to put that down and move forward. Anyway, there are some very positive updates to share with you as well. I try very hard to focus on the positive and these things definitely qualify in my book. Emmett slept in his own bed for the entire night. I can't even remember the last time that's…

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May 18, 2021

My thoughts

I have several challenging goals this week

My goal for this week is a couple of things. I have a podcast episode to finish up by Friday, we're prepping the outside of the house for painting, finishing out the last week of school, getting the kids moving forward after some difficult decisions were made, and getting business back up and running. That sounds like quite a bit and it actually is but they're all necessary. Some are necessary evils, while others are just necessary. The two weighing most heavily are getting business back to pre-COVID performance and helping the boys get passed this stuff with their mom. Getting business back will allow us to move and getting the kids through their through their current situation will help all of us to move forward. None of this stuff…

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May 17, 2021

Divorce / Life after Divorce / My thoughts

I’m going to open up a little about my life after #divorce

The weekend got off to a rough start but I'm feeling so much better. The kids don't have school today so everything is kinda thrown off as a result. It actually feels like a Sunday. I keep getting work emails that never come on the weekends and I have to keep reminding myself that it's Monday. Yesterday was my nieces first birthday and since everyone is vaccinated, we were able to get together and celebrate. It was so nice and I really liked visiting with everyone. The boys love playing with their little cousins and it helps me to see that life is moving forward. Speaking of moving foward, I went on a date yesterday evening, and I had a nice time. It was super simple and we just met…

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May 17, 2021

My thoughts

I was in the emergency room yesterday and ended up at the @ClevelandClinic

Yesterday was one of those days I'd like to avoid going forward. If you don't follow me on Facebook, then you're probably out of the loop. You can find my Facebook profile linked at the top of the page. Just sayin'..... Wednesday I began experiencing a sore throat. Not a huge deal but it was getting worse. I woke up about 3 am on Friday morning and took some motrin for the pain. It felt like a pill got stuck in my throat. When I woke up in the morning, I felt like I was choking and it scared the shit out of me. I was supposed to get the kids to Akron Children's for the first COVID shot at 10 am. I couldn't talk without feeling like I was…

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May 15, 2021

Day Trips / Family Fun / My thoughts

We took a much needed #mentalhealth day

Yesterday was amazing. It was also exhausting because I drove for over 5 hours but it was amazing nonetheless. As I mentioned in my last post, the boys had a very rough Tuesday night therapy session. While I'm not going to dive into the specifics of that, all that matters for context is that it was extremely emotional for them. I had decided to give all of us a mental health day and so I drove them out to Cook Forest State Park, near Clarion PA. It's about a 2.5 hour drive from our house but my parents were there and we wanted to visit them for a little while. The drive wasn't that bad and it was actually the first road trip we've taken in the new car. I…

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May 13, 2021

Day Trips / Family Fun / My thoughts

It’s been emotionally overwhelming day for my kids

Today has been really upsetting and emotionally overwhelming for the boys. As a an adult, I found myself overwhelmed also, so I can only imagine how the boys feel. I was texting with a friend this evening and that helped me quite a bit actually because it was a pleasant distraction from everything that was going on. I realized the boys both needed and deserved a distraction of their own. I wanted to be able to help the boys to decompress and move forward so we had an impromptu bonfire tonight. We just cooked hotdogs but they were surprised and really excited to do that. I also decided to move some meetings around and give all of us a much needed a mental health day. I'm taking the kids to…

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May 12, 2021

Confessions / Depression Management / My thoughts

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

I wanted to take a minute and talk about my personal war with depression. I've been very open and honest about this but I've not updated you guys on how I'm doing in a little while. I feel like it's been forever, actually. First of all, I want to say that yes, I still struggle with depression. Barring some breakthrough in science and medicine, I think depression will be around forever. That being said, I manage my depression quite well and for the most part, it doesn't play a prominent role in my life. If it's not managed well or I go through a very difficult time, the balance I've worked very hard to establish, can be thrown off. When that happens, I can struggle a bit. I've actually been…

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May 11, 2021