It has been recommended to us by Gavin doctors to not allow him to participate in trick or treat this year do to his instability right how. Gavin is completely over stimulated and overwhelmed all the time. He is affraid of everything right now. He is still hallucinating every day. The concern is that seeing people dressed up as some of the things he has been seeing may serve to push him over the edge. We can't afford to destabalize any more the he already is because there is nothing we can do to help him right now. It really sucks because I know he os going to be upset but we have to preserve the family unit and Gavin being any more stressed will sink the ship. I wish…

...without a hitch this morning. Everyone was in a good mood so hopefully some of us have a better day today. I'm just hanging with Mr. Emmett John watching a movie while the other kids get to school and Lizze gets some bloodwork done.

Gavin had a really bad day at school today. He was sent to the office 2 times. According to the note he was unsafe. He was untoletant and very easily frustrated. Not a good day. Hopefully Wednesday is a better day. I don't know where Gavin is headed but I really fear we are headed for some dark times.

...Dr. Patti tonight. We are trying to figure out what is really going on with him. Gavin is contaminating so much within the house with his behaviors. We don't know where Elliott ends and Gavin begins. Basically, we don't know how much of Elliott's problems are actually his issues or Elliott reacting to Gavin's behaviors. We know he is very high functioning aspergers. However, we are seeing some concerning behaviors from Elliott and don't know why they are there. Does that make any sense?

...donuts with Dad at Elliott's school. I'm really excited bacause we get to carve a pumpkin eat donuts together. He is really excited also. This is my first "typical" type experience like this.  I'll let you know how it goes.

...fittest is what my life feels like to me some times. I feel like things are so difficult that survival is next to impossible. Not impossible just next to impossible. Raising three Autistic children is the most challenging thing I have ever faced and I used to save lives and run into burning buildings for a living. Those of you with Autistic kids understand what I mean by challenges.  Nothing comes easy, ever. The things most people take for granted astound me. I would love to have the freedom to take my family out to dinner or even to church. However, it's not something that is easily attainable.  There are far to many uncontrollable noises, smells and other stimulation out there that can and will set my kids on downward spiral to…

...adopted 3 years ago today. Time flies.

...time with Emmett between errands.  He's so sweet.