After 9 months of waiting for your little miracle to arrive, it finally happens. You see your child for the first time and you feel love like you have never thought possible. You may have loved many people or things in your life but nothing like this. Everything is perfect and you finally bring them home and begin your new life as a parent. After a few months, you get into the groove of things. Everything soon becomes second nature. A few months after that you start to notice things. They are little and you probably should not worry but you do anyway. You visit your pediatrician for some peace of mind. They tell you it is nothing to worry about. However, after a while it becomes clear that something…

I feel like we are on the brink of collapse. We have everything closing in around us. Gavin is really, really struggling, not to mention driving us all crazy. He just doesn't ever seem to stop. We have no idea what his motives are or wether these things things are within his control. Dr. Patti seems to think he I playing us in many situations. I can see that but how do we know for sure and what the hell are we supposed to do about it?

We are seeing what seems like a personality shift in Gavin.  We have are hands tied until we get the movement issues addressed but it is making me nervous. He is VERY easily agitated and very disrespectful. He is also not making much sense when he talks to us. I am concerned we have hit another period of regression. I am not sure how much more he can take. I am not sure how much more we can take either. We need answers.....

On of the reasons I started this blog was to vent my frustrations and feelings in a safe place and be able to leave them there. The other reason I started this blog was to share my personal story with Autism and how it affects our lives. One of the things you will notice is that we are not dealing with the "as seen on tv" kind of Autism. While there is no such thing as a "typical" Autistic child you will find that in our case with Gavin he is a truly unique and complicated case. The other thing you will find is that my posts are darker and grittier. This is because I don't sugar coat anything. There is no benefit if I am not honest. I don't…

It appears that with the exception of Lizze and I everyone is feeling better. Emmett and Gavin were only down for about 12 hours. Elliott was also down for about 12 hours. Lizze and I are going a bit longer most likely do to the fact we are getting no rest. The kids willl be back in school Tuesday and things will get back to "normal". These words are posted via Wordpress for Android

All five of us have the stomach flu at the same time. God must hate us. We need sleep. These words are posted via Wordpress for Android

I think Lizze is the last one standing. I'm not feeling very well. Took something for the nausea so I can maybe push through this. It seems to be helping. With everyone vomiting all willy billy we have been washing sheets and blankets all day. Lizze just informed me the washer has stopped working and is making a buzzing sound. The barrel is full of water so I will have to drain it. We have also lost our wireless network due to a dead router. That may sound trivial but EVERYTHING was connected via wifi. Can't afford to replace it right now so I need to find the old one that is password locked and hardreset it so we can be all connected again. Elliott and Emmett seem to be…

Just got a call from Lizze's mom. Apparently Gavin vomited while at the store. I was really hoping he would be spared. Gavin is a really bad sick person. If he throws up just once he will make himself throw up for days. It's something that has developed over the years and it has become a problem. If his tummy hurts (even if he's there is no nausea) he will make himself throw up. We never know if he's actually sick or not. The other problem is he goes unmedicated during this time ands that's not good for him. We are in for a very long couple of days. These words are posted via Wordpress for Android