Resentment,Grief and Guilt (A very honest post)

I want to talk about a very personal situation and share my feelings on this particular subject. Most of my posts revolve around Gavin, my 11 year old son. Honestly, that's because Gavin's behaviors are one of my single biggest source of stress. Please, notice I said "Gavin's behaviors" and not "Gavin".  Gavin is a very unique and very complicated person. I want to be very honest about my feelings in this post in order to give the world a better understanding of what our lives are like. I also want people to understand that it's okay to feel the way you feel. Raising a child on the spectrum is no easy task, but in the end, is totally worth while. Gavin came into my life when he was about…

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Made a decision…

I have been thinking about it and have decided to expand my business online. I will start offering the VHS to DVD conversion to anyone in the continental US. I will set up a store front via paypal. The customer will pay via paypal for each hour of video they would like converted. Once payment has cleared I will ship out a prepaid box for them to ship the tapes in. They will ship them to me I will convert them and ship everything back within a few days. This way I control the shipping. Shipping to and from will be insured and everything will require a signature. I will draft a general disclaimer covering everything possible. I will probably officially start in the 1st quarter 2011 but will gladly…

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The week….

The week has started on a rough note. Gavin is struggling and melting down over everything. The self injury is becoming more serious. He is smashing his head into his knees and the sound is horrible. I know it has to hurt him and if he's doing it for attention we cannot react. I am worried because he just seems to keep esculating. I wish I knew what was happening to him. Elliott is SO whiny all the time. He isn't sleeping well and cries over everything. He is collecting little things like trinkets. Dr. Patti says that is typical behaviour for a foster child. I am so worried about him. It keeps me up at night. Emmett is just into everything he can possibly be in to. School starts…

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Fragile X update

Someone posted over on my wifes blog about Fragile X. She wanted us to know that Fragile X carriers can suffer from tremmors. As you may remember Lizze suffers from tremmors. They have never really found the cause but also never looked in that direction. We are going to be checking into that because it may be another piece to the puzzle. Does anyone know anything about Fragile X and could share some reliable resources. We need to research this a bit more but I want to say thaks to the person who posted the information. It gives us something to go on. Posted from WordPress for Android

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It’s gonna be a manic Monday

My best guess it that Gavin is manic again. It would explain alot of his impulsive behaviors and extreme mood swings. It makes sense considering that his meds haven't been adjusted in months due to the movement issues. Gavin has struggled all weekend. Although he has also made some good choices as well. He is also back to not sleeping which is always a tell tale sign for him. I don't know what this week will be like but if this weekend is any indication it's gonna be a rough one. Hope everyone had a great holiday weekend. Posted from WordPress for Android

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The big one….

I am currently sitting in my room while Gavin is melting down in the middle on my floor. This is a big one. We haven't seen one like this for quiet a while. I missed the beginning of it but something to do with lying to Lizze. Anyways I took over to give her a break. Gavin is punching,hitting and now biting himself. I am doing my best to ignore this as to not reinforce the behavior (as per Akron Children's). The biting is new and he appears to be esculating. Once he is done and calm for a few minutes he will get a drink and be allowed to go lay down in his room. All he had to do was calm down. He is actually calmed down now.…

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Possible new source of income. Advice?

So most of you know that I fix computers out of my house to support my family. One of the services we offer is VHS to DVD. I have been doing this locally but never gave any thought to doing his online. I am thinking about offering the same survice but now offering it online. Basically people could ship the tapes to me I convert them and ship them back. I would cover the cost of shipping back and maybe cover shipping both ways. The cost for conversion would be about $10/hr including shipping. The conversion process is done in real time meaning if you have 10 hours of video it would take a minimum of 10 hours to convert. My concern about this is the shipping not so much…

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