Today has to be the worst day I have had since Elliott was in the NICU. We met with the doctor and she confirmed our fears... I can't tell you how hard it is to even type right now. I had to hold it together so I could drive home. Emmett is not "Non-verbal" Autistic but he isn't Aspergers either.  Basically he it's better then non-verbal but worse than Aspergers.  To be honest I had been thinking Aspergers but he is far to delayed developmentally she said. He isn't completely non-verbal as he has a few words. She said he makes eye contact but won't maintain it. So he is Autistic... I somehow thought it would be easier to knowing for sure but it isn't..... In truth, right now I…

We are in the room waiting to hear the results. Emmett is playing and I'm typing just to keep from throwing up....

As if today wasn't bad enough we met with "we need you to go to out patient lab and have blood work done. Guess how much he is going to like that. I hate this day and wish it was over......

We have arrived and now the wait begins....

I woke up this morning with the knowledge that it may be the last morning I wake up not knowing for sure where Emmett falls on the spectrum. It's like a nightmare you can't wake up from. I was putting Emmett to bed last night. I found myself asking him to fight. Actually, I was more begging him to fight. I begged him not to slip away and to please still be "there" in the morning. I think that's what scares me the most. With Gavin we simply didn't know what was about to happen. I have so many regrets. With Emmett I don't want to make the same mistakes. I know the risks now and don't want to take 1 sec for granted. I want this time to be…

My friend Stuart Duncan had a great idea the other day. Why not open up the blog to questions... What better way to spread Awareness then dispel any misconceptions about Autism and answer any questions anyone might have about raising children on the spectrum. So here you go. I will take questions about anything pertaining to the topics discuss on this blog and answering them as honestly as I can. What to know more about me, just ask. Want to know what raising an Autistic child is like , just ask. Maybe this will help to generate further dialog and promote Autism education and awareness...

This had slipped through cracks this was a shot of Gavin in recovery......

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