The kids are in rare form today. Lizze is still in a ton of pain and very nervous that the surgery will be cancled because of the meds during the ER trip last night. She had to go get checked out it could have been and heart attack or even a stroke. Thankfully it wasn't but we didn't know that at the time. I'm sure the surgery will go on as planned. I already started laundry and I'llc work on dinner in a bit. We have a meeting with Social Security today for Gavin's re-evaluation. This has to be done every 4 years I guess in order to maintain his benefits. I think we have everything in order as far as the kids go this week. They will be gone…

She got home a little while ago. They said she has neuropathy.  I need to research that. She was very clear she wasn't after drugs or pain killers but they insisted she get something to take the edge off so they were comfortable sending her home. They gave her steroids and pain killers until she can get back to pain management. We have to call Dr. D to make sure the surgery is still a go because of the steroids. The ER doc said it should be fine but check to make sure. Thanks for the prayers... Posted via midNIGHT powered Epic 4G by lost and tired

It appears that the pain is related to neuropathy and fibro. That's all I've heard. Trying to get 3 kids in bed at the same time and I just want to scream. Posted via midNIGHT powered Epic 4G by lost and tired

Lizze is off to the emergancy room. Her mom is coming to get her. She has developed unwed symptoms that concern me. She has a "new" type of pain and it's isolated to the left side of her body. The concern for me is the pain in her shoulder that radiates done her left arm. That is a classic sign of cardiac problems. When talking to her about it she has NEVER felt pain this intense. That also concerns me. As much as I want to go with her the kids need me here. She's in good hands with her mom. This is probably fibrous related but this is new for her and could be the sign of something very serious. Please say a prayer.... Posted via midNIGHT powered Epic…

I had everything figured out. I was going to have the house ready and the laundry done prior to Lizze having surgery. Then the storm hit and the kids were home all week long. Nothing seemed to get done. Now I have to add grocery shopping to the list of things to do while I'm sick. We haven't been able to see the nutritionist about Emmett yet so I'll be flying blind at the store again today. Something has been sneeking into his diet cause he has been sick the past few days. So we need to be much more careful. Here is everything I need to get done: Clean the house Replace our badly broken couch Catch up on laundry Clean the kitchen Grocery shopping Figure out the final…

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I have no patience especially with Gavin. He won't pull himself away from what he is doing to go to the bathroom. He waits until the WORST time possible to decide he needs to go. It's just a choice he makes. I don't think there is anything really behind it. Just drives me crazy. I'm really starting to get nervous about this week. I just hope I'm strong enough to pull this off and survive. Posted via midNIGHT powered Epic 4G by lost and tired

As we get closer to to next Wednesday I am starting to feel the pressure building up. This is not going to be easy to get through. I'm worried about a number for things. I'm worried about the procedure itself and everything going well. I'm worried about the recovery period and risk of blood clotts. I'm worried about the impact this will have on her fibromyalgia. I'm worried about how I'm going to cover the cost with things already so tight. I worry about the impact this will have on our VERY FRAGILE "balance". I may act like I'm ok with this but the truth is I'm really scared. I'm afraid of something going wrong or that she will be worse off after all is said and done. I want…