I wanted to thank you all for the outpouring of support since last nights events (I can't stop shaking) . I intend to reply to every comment and the mountain of email as well. Right now, I just in one of those, life flashed before your eyes, kinda of places. I found out this morning,  as Lizze and I were talking,  that she was not in the van when this happened.  She had gotten out of the van right after I did. When I made the decisions I did last night,  they were split second decisions based on the fact that I thought Lizze was still in the car.  Learning that she was in harms way as well makes this so much more difficult to deal with. I would also…

I posted this morning about my two youngest reducing to flush toilet paper rolls down the toilet this morning. This was honestly, the last thing I needed to be dealing with today. Based of the advice of my readers, I decided to get some Drano. However,when reviewing my options, none of them specified where or not they work on those pesky things like, toilet paper rolls. I figured, it's just thin cardboard and should break down on its own. However, this should help to speed up the process. ;-) " Thanks for the advice everyone. - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version…

Emmett and Elliott decided it would be fun to flush toilet paper rolls down the toilet. Rather shove them down the toilet. Now nothing will flush. I have plundged and snake that freakin' toilet all morning but it's still a no go. My hope is that the cardboard will eventually break down enough to flush it down or plunge it out. Until then...well..not gonna be a fun day. All of this, and it isn't even 8am yet. - Lost and Tired Posted by Wordpress for Android via Samsungs Epic Touch 4G (provided to me at no charge by Sprint) without the use of proper editing tools and disadvantages of a bastardized version of auto-correct. So please forgive the spelling ;-) Please Vote for Lost and Tired (just click the link)…

I'm hoping this makes sense. We had a very close call tonight and right now I'm still shaking... I'm hoping that by writing this down I can start to relax. So if this seems kinda scattered, understand that is's all I can do at this point. We were coming home from taking Emmett to the doctors because he has been screaming all day long and ended up missing therapy today because we couldn't get him dressed.. He was in a tremendous amount of pain so we wanted to make sure there was nothing else going on. Turns out he's cutting 4 teeth and that's partly why he's been such a grump. Anyway, Elliott and Gavin were with Lizze's mom, out looking for costumes. As we were turning down one of…

Gavin begins PT (Physical Therapy) this afternoon. He desperately needs it. He seems to be loosing more and more muscle control and hopefully, he can slow the progression of this process by working on some of these areas with the PT. Say a prayer that this goes well. I'm going to try to document as much as possible, so I can share with you what happens during a PT session.

This morning was a relatively good morning. Elliott was feeling better and Emmett seemed to be feeling OK. Lizze was not doing well so she spent most of the day in bed. We were supposed to go to my parents today in order to celebrate my dads birthday. We had canceled due to everyone not feeling good. However, since everyone was feeling better, I took the boys and let Lizze sleep. However, shortly after arriving, Elliott told my mom that he still wasn't feeling well but he was afraid if he had told me that he wouldn't have been able to go. He was right, I would have stayed home and let someone come to pick Gavin and Emmett up. I had to take Elliott home because he was still…

As many of you know, Gavin is dealing with something quite profound. No one has been able to explain it outside of saying it's some type of degenerative neurological disorder. He has been losing muscle control. Since January, he has lost his reflexes. Within the past month it was discovered that Gavin can't move his tongue in an upward direction. This it to blame for part of the speech regression. It has been recommended that he has a swallow study done to make sure he is having issues swallowing. However, recently, Gavin's grade are starting to fall, quite significantly. This is getting to become a much more serious problem. Our next step is to see a very special doctor at Akron Children's Hospital. If you have ever watched the show…