I hate stress.  I know some stress is a good thing.  It makes you rise to the occasion and do what needs to be done. However,  the amount of stress I'm under makes me want to friggin eat. It also makes me want to cry and even pull out what's left of my hair. I'm watching cartoons at 2 am because I can't shut my brain off.  I'm downstairs on the couch because Lizze is in so much pain,  she does better with the bed all to herself. Whatever I can do to help make her more comfortable is worth the cost. My brain is racing at a thousand miles an hour because I can't stop worrying about everything and how I'm going to either pull my family through it.…

Please say a prayer for my wife Lizze or keep her in your thoughts. She in really bad shape right now. Her migraine is still in full effect,  6+ months and counting.  For about the last 2 weeks or so,  she has been dealing with serious back problems.  It's become so bad that she finds herself physically ill on many occasions,  simply from the pain. Her doctor says she suffers from degenerative discount disease but he is going off an older MRI.  Clearly something is wrong and that's why she is supposed to have a new MRI this week. Unfortunately, that has been put on hold and will need to be rescheduled because it conflicts with Gavin's autonomic testing.  You want to talk about a crappy situation to be in, …

As fellow special needs parents you are probably aware of how difficult and challenging it can be to get our kiddos with #Autism to eat their vegetables.  With 3 boys on the #Autism spectrum,  I'm all to aware of this challenge as I face this every single day. I thought I would share oe of my success stories and introduce you to what I call,  Undercover Vegetables. Undercover Vegetables are vegetables that are tasked with covertly providing nutrition to my kiddos with #Autism.  They perform this task without even my pickiest eater realizing it happened. When dealing with children on the #Autism spectrum,  you basically have to employ creative methods in order to accomplish many things that would come much easier to other families. Basically,  we do what we have…

As much as I need a break,  at least every once in awhile, getting one is bittersweet.  I know that sounds crazy but I miss my kids when they are gone. Watching them drive off this evening was actually kinda sad for me.  I always sleep better when they're home. I don't mean the quality of sleep necessarily,  but I'm just more at ease. I'm trying to go to sleep right now and all I want to do is walk into their rooms and tuck then in. It really does make me sad,  and honestly I even feel crazy for saying that.  I mean,  I need the break, I get that,  but I'm just not used to being without them.  Sure,  someone might spend the night at our parents house…

Lizze and I actually have a night to ourselves.  I'm not talking babysitter and be home by 10pm either. I'm talking,  honest to goodness,  go out,  come home,  go to sleep and wake up in the morning,  childless. This is beyond a rare event for my wife and I.  We never get to go anywhere and haven't ever been on a vacation together either. Unfortunately,  Lizze is in really rough shape so we're very limited but the house is quiet and while I miss my boys already,  I love the sound of quiet. I grabbed a picture of Emmett and Elliott before they left for Grandma's house.  Gavin had already left for my parents so I only got these two.  Thanks for watching the boys tonight for us.  You have…