Gavin returns home at some point today. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a bit nervous about that. It's really difficult because it's not that I don't want to see him,  it's that the behaviors come with him. There isn't a way to separate the two. I was speaking with my Mom tonight about this whole thing.  It's so hard to explain what this feels like.  No matter what I do,  I have to make a decision that will have such a huge impact on my entire family.  It feels like Lizze and I have to choose between our children. I know it's not nearly that simple and that there are few options left,  however,  it still feels wrong.  I know I sound like a scratched record…

The boys got along so well yesterday. They even built this little train track together. They are quite proud of this track and have been playing with it since yesterday morning.  I wish we had more moments like this. Having said that, I'll take the ones that I can get. :-) **Thanks for reading**        -Lost and Tired Please join our Autism Help Forum Look for "Autism Help" app at the Google Play Store This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung's Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct is working against me.

After dinner Lizze and I took the boys outside to play. Rather than play with their toys or even the dogs,  they decided to play in the dirt. That's right,  my two boys with #Autism were actually playing in the dirt.  Not only were they playing in it but they were wearing it as well.  I know many of you out there can appreciate the significance of this.  **Thanks for reading**        -Lost and Tired Please join our Autism Help Forum Look for "Autism Help" app at the Google Play Store This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung's Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct is working against me.

We had a picnic in our living room this evening.  I tossed some chicken on the grill,  cooked some corn and red skin potatoes.  I covered the chicken in Elliott's favorite BBQ sauce and we ate dinner in the living room. Elliott and Emmett ate dinner on a blanket we spread out on the floor.  Lizze and I sat on the couch but we watched some Lego movie together, with the boys.  It was actually kinda nice.  In a little bit I'm taking the boys outside to play for awhile before bedtime.  Thankfully, the neighborhood has been relatively quiet as of late,  so we feel comfortable spending some time in the yard.  Emmett's been doing okay today but hasn't eaten much because his mouth hurts.  I'm gonna have to make…

Every once in awhile, I like to share something deeply personal. I do so in these Confessions posts. Today I want to share something that really has me torn,  deep down inside. That something, is how I've felt since Gavin left yesterday. I'm not going to rehash all that we go through when Gavin is home, because you can simply read back to find that out.  I will say that Gavin's behaviors add an extreme level of both stress and distress, to everyone in the household.  It's so bad that we are looking for residential placement but have hit multiple obstacles, namely his health issues. Gavin left for Lizze's parents house for the weekend.  We both hate the idea of having to send one of our kids away,  in order…

I think that this one is pretty good for a dialog.  What's one thing your child with #Autism has taught you? People unfamiliar with #Autism would probably assume that we,  as their parents are the key teaching.  They wouldn't be wrong but at the same time,  wouldn't be 100% right either.  What a lot of people fail to realize is while,  yes,  we are teaching our kids with #Autism, they are also teaching us.  I thought a great way to help raise #Autism Awareness would be to share something your child with #Autism has taught you... **Thanks for reading**        -Lost and Tired Please join our Autism Help Forum Look for "Autism Help" app at the Google Play Store This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of…

Please keep Mr.  Emmett John in your thoughts and prayers again.  He's hit another flare up,  the second one this month.  He has sores on the inside of his little cheeks and he's in a lot of discomfort.  If you're thinking to yourself, didn't he just get over one,  the answer is, yes he did. Occasionally this happens and he ends up having back to back flare ups.  Thankfully,  it doesn't happen all the time.  If you could just keep him in your thoughts and prayers, I would be very grateful.  :-( **Thanks for reading**        -Lost and Tired Please join our Autism Help Forum Look for "Autism Help" app at the Google Play Store This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung's Galaxy S III.…

We all know how time consuming parenting can be but even more so with special needs parenting. Raising a child on the #Autism also requires a great deal of sacrifice as well. It's easy to lose oneself in our day to day lives. Having said that,  I was wondering if there was at least one thing you do for yourself? Personally,  I enjoy walking in the evening.  It doesn't always happen but I try to do that for myself as often as possible. I also enjoy playing video games on occasion.  I think that's it's important to have something that you do for yourself. Life can be very stressful but taking time to do something for yourself, can help you better cope. So,  my question is,  what if anything do…