“I hate myself”

This post is going to be incredibly honest because I'm so angry right now.  I have to vent in a constructive manner. Emmett just hurt Elliott again and was out into time out. Upon arriving on the time out step,  he began hitting himself and screaming "I hate myself", over and over again. I want so badly to punish Gavin for this because he is responsible for teaching this shit to his baby brothers. How many 4 year olds scream "I hate myself"?  Probably not many. This is 100% learned behavior and Gavin is the teacher.  Saying that Emmett is responsible for his own behavior is total bullshit, at least start when it comes to this.  He's 4 years old and is learning these behaviors from an extremely mentally disturbed…

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Why can’t they just get along

Elliott and Emmett love each other, of that I'm sure.  However, they just cannot get along. Emmett is an absolute bully towards Elliott and Elliott knows how to push Emmett’s buttons.  I have tried everything I can to break this cycle because not only is it exhausting but it's driving me crazy,  with capital "C". I realize that they are young and whatever,  but the constant fighting over everything from Lego’s, imaginary characters to portal guns made from stictak. Why do they have to fight over everything? Why can't they just be nice to each other? This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung’s Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct hate me. Please join our Autism Help Forums Look…

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Contagious Behaviors

Something I forgot to mention in my previous post about Gavin and reactive attachment disorder is that his behaviors seem to be contagious. Of course,  I don't mean they are literally contagious but more like a really bad example. I can say this because both Elliott and Emmett are modeling or mimicking Gavin's behaviors. For example, when they get upset, they hit themselves and call themselves stupid. Neither of the E's are listening very well,  especially when it comes to Lizze. The actual act of defiance is very similar to that of Gavin. In truth,  this is nothing new.  They have been modeling get Gavin's behaviors for years. The problem is that as Gavin's behaviors get worse,  so does that of the E's. Unfortunately for us,  the E's really look…

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And so it begins

Despite all the positive thoughts and Dear God's, Emmett is now officially sick. It's barely 5am and we are up because he's so stuffy he can't breathe. I can already see that it's gonna be one of those days. This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung’s Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct hate me. Please join our Autism Help Forums Look for "Autism Help" app at the Google Play Store

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One step closer to residential care

Operation Hope is what I call our plan to not only help Gavin by placing him into residential care but save what's left of my crumbling family.  Gavin's behaviors are destroying our family. We have engaged the services of Stark County Family council.  They offer a service called Wraparound. For more on that,  use my search widget.  Basically, Wraparound is a facilitator.  They help to locate services that will benefit the family in question and also build a support system as well. We have our 2nd meeting in the morning before school. Our coordinator wants to meet Gavin and so we will be doing that before school. I'm other sure who will be taking Gavin because only one of us can go,  due to the E's being sick. Every meeting…

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Reactive Attachment Disorder: A fathers confession

I met with Dr.  Patti tonight as pretty much everyone else in the Lost and Tired house is sick.  This gave me an opportunity to speak with her about things without any distractions. The topic was of course,  Gavin. We discussed Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD)  and I gained some more insight into what Gavin's behaviors are doing to our family.  The truth is and Carl,  maybe you can back me up on this,  Gavin is attempting to divide Lizze and myself.  In some cases he is actually succeeding. That has to change and change immediately. Dr. Patti explained that this is very common in RAD kids.  Typically, the mother is the target and they do it in such a way that no one else ever witnesses anything.  That's exactly what's…

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Dear God, it’s me…..again

Dear God, I feel like we need to have a talk once again.  This isn't the first time we have spoken and I really thought we were on the same page. Clearly that's not the case. My intention is not to question you but I have to admit that I have a few questions. As you are no doubt aware,  raising special needs children is far from easy.  There really needs to be some type of divine intervention in some cases. Like many other parents, I accept and love my kids for the amazing gifts they are.  That's beyond contestation. I think that I'm doing a pretty good job,  all things considered. I'm sure you recall that I made a request back in the beginning of this journey you have…

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