Time changes things

Gavin arrived home from a weekend at the grandparents house. He had a really good time and I'm happy for him. However, he brought with him a weight that bares down on everyone in the entire house.  He hasn't done anything wrong, per say.  However, he's invading personal space and just putting everyone on edge. I can't tell you exactly how much I hate feeling this way. Gavin is my son and I wish I could be happy to see him. Sadly, I feel a sense of dread when I know he's coming home because I know what everyone is going to be going through. I used to maintain hope that things would be different this time.  I no longer have the energy to maintain that false hope any longer. …

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Beautiful Emmett

Lizze took this picture of Emmett the last time we were at the park. I thought it was absolutely beautiful and I wanted to share. This is my favorite picture of Emmett and I will remember him at this age forever.  :-)    

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Fibromyalgia is a bitch

Lizze is having a really,  really bad day.  She's in the midst of a fibro flare so bad that she can literally, not move without breaking down in tears. I don't know if it's the weather or the stress of Gavin's behaviors.  Perhaps a combination of both. All I do know for sure is that I wish I could take this away from her. I would gladly trade places with her in a second.  I'm so tired of her being in so much pain all the time and there is nothing we can do about it. One Monday, I'm calling the Cleveland Clinic and getting her in to see a rheumatologist.  When it comes to Fibromyalgia, they are the very best equipped to handle it. Slowly but surely, we are…

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Finally

I got up at 4:30am with Mr. Emmett John.  He's been getting up pretty early anymore. Shortly after,  Elliott woke up as well. I brought the boys downstairs so that Lizze could sleep.  She does that for me all the time and I wanted to return the favor. For the first time in at east a few days, Elliott and Emmett finally got along. I don't know what's changed to allow for their kindness towards each other today. Maybe they were simply too tired to bicker back and forth.  Who the hell knows.  I'm hoping that this will be a trend going forward. This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung’s Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct hate me.…

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The sad 6 year old

While Elliott was in Youngstown with Grandparents yesterday, he confessed how upset he was that Gavin will be moving to residential care.  Elliott explained to everyone he saw,  that Gavin was going to be moving and how sad it makes him. Elliott won't or at least hasn't wanted to talk to us about Gavin.  I'm really glad he confided in my Dad. He needs to be able to talk about what bothers him.  If not with us, than with his Grandparents. This is a lot to try and cope with, especially for an anxiety prone,  6 year old little boy with #Autism. This was posted via WordPress for Android, courtesy of Samsung’s Galaxy S III. Please forgive any typos. I do know how to spell but auto-correct hate me. Please…

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Tree Vomit

Every year about this time,  I begin gearing up to deal with all the fun that fall has crapped out all over my yard. This year, the leaves are falling much sooner than they normally do.  Typically, the trees in my yard will still be desperately clinging to their leaves in December. These are just Maple trees so I don't know why they are normally so difficult. This year appears to be different. Maybe it was the drought this year or maybe they are taking pitty on me,  since I never get help to rake and bag the leaves.  Either way, my entire yard is already covered in tree vomit.   Lizze can't physically help and the boys, well,  I'm better off on my own. I'm in Canton, Ohio and Fall…

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Want to share your story?

I have been at this blogging thing for quite sometime now.  I have recently decided to build up my network.  To do so,  I have begun building an Atomic Tribe over at Triberr.  Feel free to join and help the network grow. You must have an active twitter account and it doesn't matter if it's special needs related or not. Click Here to request an invite. Basically, this allows me to to leverage Twitter to help share my family's story and spread #Autism and special needs parenting awareness. Right now,  my network has a reach of 1.5 million people and it's growing every day. What I would like to do is help you share your story or #Autism/Special needs related website/blog. This would happen by the way of guest posting.…

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I’m down 2 kids

My Dad called this morning and wanted to pick up Elliott and take him to Youngstown to visit relatives and help with a repair job. This is a great chance for Elliott to get away and be a kid. No sooner did I get off the phone with my Dad, when Lizze's Mom called and wants to keep Gavin's overnight again.  Wow... We're down two kids today.  They are going to swing by and grab Gavin's meds for today and tomorrow.  If we think life is bad now,  if Gavin misses his meds.....  This means that all we have today is the screaming Emmett,  who is probably going to scream more when he wakes up and finds Elliott gone.  :-( Elliott is saying goodbye to Bella in this picture.  This…

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